Fatigue is a liar. Like a perverted siren, it will call you until you crumble upon its rocks. It’s song is negativity. Negativity that steals your hope. Your purpose. And at times, your will.
Last night, I heard its song. My schedule is mad these days and I honestly have lost sight of the big picture. I’m thrashing around, praying I won’t slip beneath the surface. Fatigue makes you fear failure. Fatigue is a liar.
Sure, failure is a possibility. I have so many moving pieces in my life right now that I could easy screw up any one of them. But where fatigue is truly lying is that failure isn’t always a bad thing. Hang in there with me — I am not delusional. And I know, winning is the only thing. But sometimes you need to take a step back to take two steps forward. As long as you learn from that step back, you will sail past your fears.
I’m sore and tired. The big picture is a bit fuzzy, too. Plus, I have a lot of questions about the future.
But right now, I’m going to get some caffeine, have a little hope, put on my headphones and ignore fatigue’s song. I have something to prove. I’m going to prove my doubts wrong.