Fit2Fat2FitBlog: Day 6 January 14, 2015

signup-fit4change-lrgNumbers don’t lie. My doctor went over some of mine as I sat on the waiting room cold paper-cover table. “Well, you’re bit anemic. You’ve been pushing yourself hard lately, eh?” Um, yes. He went through my numbers some more. “Good cholesterol is low, too. Need to work on that. Niacin would help. You also need to lose about 20 lbs.”

Twenty pounds? OK, I can live with that. That’s my PLS goal. He based my recommendation on past numbers based on past weights. I just do better when I weigh 200. I’m 218, now but not fat. I have a 34 waist. I need to slim down a little.

The anemia is worrisome. So is low good cholesterol. But diet and exercise will help that.

On the bright side, all my other numbers are perfect — for a 25-year-old. I am pretty healthy.

Last night, I didn’t sleep much and I felt it this morning when the alarm went off. In fact, it was the first time the alarm actually went off. I normally wake up before it goes off. Not this morning. I was tired. I thought for a moment about sleeping in. But you know what they say about success and showing up. My feet hit the floor and meandered over to do my PLS training.

I sucked today. Or at least I feel like I did.

Paul was there (I was glad, I’ve missed him strangely enough). And when we were with him ran the Gauntlet. And I struggled. Don’t ask me why — well, I know why. I work out with stud athletes and I ain’t one of them. But I shouldn’t have had that much problem. Hell, I ran a half marathon quickly Saturday. Maybe it is my anemia. Or lack of sleep. Or some other BS excuse I can whine about. I quickly got my mind right and pushed hard on every other exercise (loved pushing towels this morning!) and worked up a mighty sweat. I felt fear, anger and frustration leave my body.

I’m on the right track with my health. I’m glad I have my numbers and know what I need to improve. That goal will get me out of the bed tomorrow and many days after that.

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The sun above the clouds

Picking up the front page these days isn’t exactly a sack of chuckles. Between the violence in France and the crime here on our own doorstep, it’s easy to get get overwhelmed. It’s as easy to have a grayer outlook than the cold misty January sky.

I know first hand.

1503911_10153624646675721_1253413096_nLast night was one of the worst nights of my life. I’m dealing with some stuff that is pretty disappointing and heartbreaking — I had a moment late last night when I felt like I had been swallowed by darkness. I felt alone and pretty darn angry.

Yes, I have bad days, too.

But I fought back with love. Love for my kids. Love for being on this side of the grass. I reached out to some people who I know care for me and I told them how much they mean to me. I combatted selfishness with kindness. I smiled when I felt like screaming. I looked for beams of lights leaking through the cracks in the darkness.

And I found them.

This morning I’m looking out at the gray sky and I feel the warmth of the sun above the clouds. I am grateful I’ve been given another chance to make someone’s life a little better. Don’t know who yet. But I appreciate the chance. It’s my mission. It’s my purpose. And today, I’ll make it my passion.

Yazoo City’s own Zig Ziglar said it best, ” You can have everything in life you want, if you will just help enough other people get what they want.”

Amen, Zig.

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Fit2Fat2Fit Blog: Day 5. Jan 13, 2015

Fit2Fat2Fit Blog: Day 5. Jan 13.

The Dsignup-fit4change-lrgevil does six-inches (and burpees) for fun. What are six-inches? Lie on your back and lift your feet (together) to the height of six inches. Sounds simple, right? Well, not so much if you have abs of flab. Six-inches burn. Hurt. Annoy. Pester. Aggravate. And flat suck. I first experienced them during seventh grade football practice. I’ve had a hate/hate affair with them ever since.

This morning, guess what we did. Did you guess six-inches? Well, actually, we did a lot of things. But there was this one point with Coach Neil where he had us do six-inches. We were tired by that point and honestly, I think I’d have rather been bathing a cat or pulling nose hair. But my feet went up and they stayed up. And stayed up. And stayed up some more.

Now, this is were the twist came in. If anyone in the room (lines 1 and 2 were together) allowed their feet to hit the floor, he would add time for the rest of us. And guess what? Someone’s feet hit the floor. And Coach Neil made good on his word. We had to hold our feet up higher.

It was one small sliver of an hour-long workout. One small moment. But it was an important one. Because today we learned the consequences of letting down our team. It’s one thing to let yourself down. It’s another to screw over the ones who depend on you.

It’s living for something bigger than yourself. Your buddy. Your teammate. Your family. Your God.

We went back outside and worked hard with Coach Clark (which is a given). There was a time when I wanted to rest when we were doing a particularly tough core workout. But I looked at my line-mates on either side of me. They were doing the exercise. I refused to let them down and pushed through the pain.

Living for something bigger than yourself. That’s the next level.

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Greatness within you

I had an interesting conversation with a friend who read today’s post about the half marathon. “Marshall, I can’t run. My knees won’t allow me. So while I enjoyed your post, that will never be me.”

I thought for a second (I didn’t have enough caffeine in me to lubricate my brain, so it took me a second to respond.) This is what I said:

“I’m a pretty unlikely runner — I’m more of a clydesdale than a racehorse. But I completely understand. Just pretend that the half marathon is a metaphor. A metaphor for setting a seemingly tough goal and blowing it out of the water. We all have greatness in us. Instead of running, it could be you doubling your sales calls for the month. Or it could be finding a way to feed 20 families. You can do 30 random kind things for strangers in a month or write a thank-you note a day. You could go back to school and earn your MBA. When I turned the corner and rushed the finish line, I got a burst of adrenaline. When you complete your huge goal, you will, too.”

My friend looked at me for a moment like I was full of it (I get that look a lot) but then something kicked in. I could tell he understood what I was saying. Who knows what his big goal is. But I have complete faith once he starts pursing it, he’ll change his world for the good.

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Fit2Fat2Fit2 Blog: 13.1 miles and a gut check

Imagine this: You’ve run 13 miles. You’re tired, sweaty yet cold because the temperature is well-below freezing. You see people wearing their medals — you know the finish line is close. But it’s not THAT close. You still have yards to go — maybe the length of a football field. Your legs are close to cramping and your brain says quit. There’s not much left in your tank.

10850019_10155099934680721_2338931867732631388_nBut you smell the finish. You feel it.

Your brain gets out of the way and your ambition takes over. You find sometimes inside of you and it pushes your legs even faster. The last turn is ahead and you take it. And there it is — the finish line. An animal instinct kicks in and you sprint. Hard. The clock above the finish slows down. Tick. Tick. Tick. Tick. Your eyes blur out everything around you except your goal. Sound goes away. You run faster than you ever thought you could.

Then you cross the finish line.

You’ve done it. You’ve accomplished something most people will never do. You reached down inside of yourself and you achieved your goal. And you did in a better time than you imagined. You’ve finished a half-marathon. 13.1 hilly, cold miles. You feel a little dizzy and a lot of satisfaction.

That was my day yesterday. Thanks to Chuck Galey for pacing me and pushing me (and running with me). I had thought I’d at best run 2 hours and 30 minutes. I ran nine minutes faster than my goal. Thanks to the organizers of the Mississippi Blues Marathon for creating a challenging course and a warm atmosphere on a cold day. Thanks to all the volunteers for your hard work and Southern hospitality. It was a great day spent with many great friends.

It’s good to challenge yourself occasionally to see what you have inside you. To have a gut check. To see what you’re made of. Yesterday was one of those days.

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Fit2Fat2FitBlog: Day 4 — Why we train

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It’s Friday. Your bed is warm and the floor is cold. You muster the energy to get your feet on the ground and head to the gym but you’re sore. Tired. Worn out. Your muscles burn. You don’t want to be there. You could just go through motions. You know, give half effort. I mean, who would know if you did? It’s a victimless crime, right? Just coast on through the workout to the weekend and everything will be just fine.

But you don’t. You reach down inside of you and pull out a little more effort. You lean into your exercises and get the most out of them. You hurt. You’re tired. But your body responds when your brain tells you it can’t. You unmask your brain for what is: A liar. You push. Sweat drips downs your face and into your eyes. The sting reminds you that you are alive. And when the hour is up, you feel a sense of satisfaction that powers you through the day. You wanted this. You trained your muscles.

And you trained so much more.

It’s Friday. Your bed is warm and the floor is cold. You muster the energy to get your feet on the ground and go look for a job — but you’re sore. Tired. Worn out. Your heart aches. You don’t want to move. You could go through the motions. You know, give half effort. I mean, who would know? It’s a victimless crime, right? Just coast through your life and everything will be fine.

No, it won’t’ be fine. You have people depending on you. So you reach down inside of you and pull out a little more effort. You lean into your life and get the most out of it. You hurt. You’re tired. But your body responds when your brain tells you it can’t. You continue to push. The sting of fear reminds you that you are alive. You feel a sense of satisfaction that powers you through the day. You needed this.

You’ve trained so much more when you worked out.

You trained your will.

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Humor lives on

My phone buzzed on the way to work yesterday. I looked down and it was a message from one of the local TV reporters. She had a question for me. Well, I had no idea what she wanted so I turned the radio to the news.

And I promptly foB6xYknOIEAA_M37und my answer.

Terrorists had slaughtered 12 and wounded 20 at a French satirical publication in Paris, France. And among the 12 were four cartoonists. They had been murdered because the terrorists did not like what they drew. They had been slaughtered because they had dared to express their opinion.

Damn.

The reporter asked me if I was afraid. Good question, I guess. I mean, four cartoonists died. And Lord knows I’ve made enough people mad over the years. But then I thought, “no.” Because you can’t live life afraid. A resident of Belhaven was shot taking her trash to the curb yesterday. We can stumble across monsters at any time. But that doesn’t mean we run away. We can’t be locked in fear. We can’t live that way — at least for long. And people around the world agree. The outpouring by freedom-loving people yesterday was nothing short of inspiring.

As I was drawing, I thought about the slain cartoonists. And then I thought how police or soldiers must feel when one of their brethren dies. I felt mad, outraged and a little worried. “Would it be me?” Pretty normal emotions, actually.

Then the person at the front desk came to tell me, “Someone’s here to see you and they have a camera.”

I quipped, “At least it’s not a gun.”

I used humor to diffuse fear. That’s what humanity does. And that’s something terrorists will never be able to stop.

Je suis Charlie.

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Fit2Fat2Fit Blog: Day 3 January 8, 2014

Weight: 225. Goal 200

I tell my sons they’re the sum of their five closest friends. That’s a fancy way of saying, “You’re who you hang out with.” If that’s the case, I’m a lucky guy. My teammates are some of the best people I’ve met in Mississippi. They’re successful, focused, driven — and most are overcoming some life challenges that would knock normal people to their knees.signup-fit4change-lrg

This morning, we worked out in the field house (not out in the 13-degree weather.) Coach Clark started us out with a workout that made our legs burn. Then our line went to the weights. We did upper body and shoulder work –more burning muscles. We then went into the hallway where we did wall sits and wall runs. For our third station, we did the Gauntlet. The Gauntlet means different things depending where you do it. At JSU, it usually involves running around the Walter Payton Center while carrying a weight. At Madison Central, you run the stadium (my favorite). This morning, thought, running the Gauntlet involved us running a loop around the inside the field house, through a ladder drill and then up and down stairs to the second floor. I was fine until the very end — and I started sucking wind. (I’m still getting past my virus and am not running well.) By the time we got to Coach Clark’s drill, I had hit a wall. I didn’t do the exercise well.

At least not Line 1 worthy.

Don’t get me wrong — I’m not beating myself up. I had a solid workout and a good performance today. But I didn’t do well on my last session. And you’re only as good as your last session. Failures are only failures if you don’t learn from them. They are benchmarks. They teach you what you’re capable of when pushed. When I “fail,” I know where I stand. And I now know I need to improve.

But how do I go about doing it?

Back to what I said at the beginning — you know, “You are a sum of your closest friends,” stuff. I workout with a guy named Bucky. Bucky has lost over 100 lbs. doing PLS and last year won Athlete of the Year. He’s a beast of an athlete — but what impresses me is his will. PLS helped him make the mental transformation I’m seeking. He is focused and dedicated. His word is gold and he puts in the work every single session. He’s no nonsense. You can sense his focus. I tried to keep up with him today. And I can report, I have a way to go. But on the third day of my 12-weeks of working out, I now know where I am going.

I want to be more like Bucky.

 

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Fit2Fat2Fit Blog: Day 2 Jan. 7, 2015

signup-fit4change-lrgWeight 225 lbs. Goal 200 lbs.

My bed was warm. The covers soft. My pillow fit neatly around my resting head. The red light of my alarm clock glowed “3:49.” It was one minute before the alarm would sound. One eye glared at it while the other desperately tried to stay shut. Thanks to muscle memory, my right arm came up out of the covers and turned off the alarm. My feet swung around and hit the cold wood floor.

The hardest part of my workout was done.

I put on shorts and a long-sleeved shirt. It was pretty cold, so I figured we might be inside. But JUST in case, I packed tights, gloves and a hat. My foresight saved me — we were outside today. Let’s just say a frozen artificial football field makes doing sit-ups a whole new experience.

At 5 a.m., we broke into lines. I got into my normal line 2. But John (my workout partner) and I were quickly moved into line 1. Line 1 is the top line — where the top athletes reside. I’m definitely at the bottom of the barrel when it comes to athletic ability in that group. And I know I’ll have to make it up with effort and attitude.

That’s my goal this 12-weeks. To be worthy of Line 1.

We started with Coach Neil in the weight room. (Yay, inside!) We did a weight-machine circuit and stayed at each station until our muscles burned. I think we did around 13 stations. I lost count. From there, we went to Coach Richard and the quick-foot ladder drill. My group hustled through those and I felt my half-operational lungs burning. Then it was on to Clark, were we did arm-mechanics and some core work. He had us do 60 sit-ups and then raising our feet into the air. Let’s just say the ground was chilly. Next, Coach Trahan was awaiting us, where we did dynamic warmups. (I got to dust off my inch-worm abilities.) And the cherry on top was a 200-yard run and then two 100-yard runs. My line mates turned it into a sprint. I was right there in the middle of them.

I noted the temperature when I left. It was 32 degrees and lord knows what the windchill was. And a sane person would wonder why I got out of the bed at 3:49 to be part of it. Well, I’ve seen the statistics for Mississippi. I know we nearly spend a billion dollars of Medicaid money treating obesity. I’ve seen my own family members suffer from health problems that are preventable. So when I took a moment to study my alarm clock this morning, I made the decision not to be a statistic after all.

 

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Fit2Fat2Fit Blog: Day 1

signup-fit4change-lrgJanuary 6, 2015 Weight 225 lbs. 

There was freaking frost on the football field. Frost. My virus broke last night, leaving me sleeping in a pool of sweat. What the heck was I doing standing outside in sub-freezing weather? Was I chasing pneumonia? What was I doing wearing tights? (I’m sure my PLS teammates were wondering that on, too.)

Well, I was doing my fit-test for the next 12-weeks of my Paul Lacoste Sports bootcamp. And this is my first Fit2Fat2Fit blog entry for 2015.

Here are my numbers:
Pushups. 60. Goal: 100. The most I’ve ever done consecutively: 73 — ten years ago.
Sit-ups: 50. Goal: 100. I got this one.
Overhead press: 40
Step-ups: Something like that, too.

Running was where things went to heck. My lungs are off-line from being sick, so I felt like a fish gasping on a dock. I did the 100-yard shuttle (while slipping on the icy field) in 24 seconds. I should be closer to 21 seconds.
And my mile run? A CRAPPY 8:54. Ugh. My goal is to get back in the seven-minute range.

I weigh (by their scale and with a lot of clothing on to stay warm) 225 lbs. My goal, shared my by teammates Michael and John, is to lose 25 lbs. That will require me eating VERY clean. I’m really not that fat. But I used to be.

Seven sessions ago, I started this program weighing 248 lbs. That was nearly 250 lbs. of pure fat. I couldn’t run to the fridge, either. My waist was 41 inches. I had chest pains. I was the poster child for a heart attack.

Today, my waist is 34 inches and I can run in the neighborhood of 15 miles. It’s muscle now. But I could still trim down.

In 2011, it was about getting in shape. But today, it’s about mental training. The past three weeks have been some of the most taxing of my life. I’m coming into this physically and mental beat up. PLS training teaches you that your body can achieve way more than your mind thinks it can. That’s huge. In this stressful time, that’s invaluable.

I’ll be training in Madison, outside, with my PLS friends. I love them — and I’m not being sappy. They inspire me and encourage me. And they’ll bust my chops if I’m slacking off. We all need warriors like them in our lives.

What really excites me is that several of my Clarion-Ledger coworkers are doing the program for the first time. They’ll be at Jackson State and inside. But it won’t be easy for them. I look forward to following their journey and encouraging them however I can. And I hope they have the same results I have had.

So here we go. The journey to better health has begun.

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