Fit2Fat2FitBlog: Day 4 — Why we train

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It’s Friday. Your bed is warm and the floor is cold. You muster the energy to get your feet on the ground and head to the gym but you’re sore. Tired. Worn out. Your muscles burn. You don’t want to be there. You could just go through motions. You know, give half effort. I mean, who would know if you did? It’s a victimless crime, right? Just coast on through the workout to the weekend and everything will be just fine.

But you don’t. You reach down inside of you and pull out a little more effort. You lean into your exercises and get the most out of them. You hurt. You’re tired. But your body responds when your brain tells you it can’t. You unmask your brain for what is: A liar. You push. Sweat drips downs your face and into your eyes. The sting reminds you that you are alive. And when the hour is up, you feel a sense of satisfaction that powers you through the day. You wanted this. You trained your muscles.

And you trained so much more.

It’s Friday. Your bed is warm and the floor is cold. You muster the energy to get your feet on the ground and go look for a job — but you’re sore. Tired. Worn out. Your heart aches. You don’t want to move. You could go through the motions. You know, give half effort. I mean, who would know? It’s a victimless crime, right? Just coast through your life and everything will be fine.

No, it won’t’ be fine. You have people depending on you. So you reach down inside of you and pull out a little more effort. You lean into your life and get the most out of it. You hurt. You’re tired. But your body responds when your brain tells you it can’t. You continue to push. The sting of fear reminds you that you are alive. You feel a sense of satisfaction that powers you through the day. You needed this.

You’ve trained so much more when you worked out.

You trained your will.

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Humor lives on

My phone buzzed on the way to work yesterday. I looked down and it was a message from one of the local TV reporters. She had a question for me. Well, I had no idea what she wanted so I turned the radio to the news.

And I promptly foB6xYknOIEAA_M37und my answer.

Terrorists had slaughtered 12 and wounded 20 at a French satirical publication in Paris, France. And among the 12 were four cartoonists. They had been murdered because the terrorists did not like what they drew. They had been slaughtered because they had dared to express their opinion.

Damn.

The reporter asked me if I was afraid. Good question, I guess. I mean, four cartoonists died. And Lord knows I’ve made enough people mad over the years. But then I thought, “no.” Because you can’t live life afraid. A resident of Belhaven was shot taking her trash to the curb yesterday. We can stumble across monsters at any time. But that doesn’t mean we run away. We can’t be locked in fear. We can’t live that way — at least for long. And people around the world agree. The outpouring by freedom-loving people yesterday was nothing short of inspiring.

As I was drawing, I thought about the slain cartoonists. And then I thought how police or soldiers must feel when one of their brethren dies. I felt mad, outraged and a little worried. “Would it be me?” Pretty normal emotions, actually.

Then the person at the front desk came to tell me, “Someone’s here to see you and they have a camera.”

I quipped, “At least it’s not a gun.”

I used humor to diffuse fear. That’s what humanity does. And that’s something terrorists will never be able to stop.

Je suis Charlie.

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Fit2Fat2Fit Blog: Day 3 January 8, 2014

Weight: 225. Goal 200

I tell my sons they’re the sum of their five closest friends. That’s a fancy way of saying, “You’re who you hang out with.” If that’s the case, I’m a lucky guy. My teammates are some of the best people I’ve met in Mississippi. They’re successful, focused, driven — and most are overcoming some life challenges that would knock normal people to their knees.signup-fit4change-lrg

This morning, we worked out in the field house (not out in the 13-degree weather.) Coach Clark started us out with a workout that made our legs burn. Then our line went to the weights. We did upper body and shoulder work –more burning muscles. We then went into the hallway where we did wall sits and wall runs. For our third station, we did the Gauntlet. The Gauntlet means different things depending where you do it. At JSU, it usually involves running around the Walter Payton Center while carrying a weight. At Madison Central, you run the stadium (my favorite). This morning, thought, running the Gauntlet involved us running a loop around the inside the field house, through a ladder drill and then up and down stairs to the second floor. I was fine until the very end — and I started sucking wind. (I’m still getting past my virus and am not running well.) By the time we got to Coach Clark’s drill, I had hit a wall. I didn’t do the exercise well.

At least not Line 1 worthy.

Don’t get me wrong — I’m not beating myself up. I had a solid workout and a good performance today. But I didn’t do well on my last session. And you’re only as good as your last session. Failures are only failures if you don’t learn from them. They are benchmarks. They teach you what you’re capable of when pushed. When I “fail,” I know where I stand. And I now know I need to improve.

But how do I go about doing it?

Back to what I said at the beginning — you know, “You are a sum of your closest friends,” stuff. I workout with a guy named Bucky. Bucky has lost over 100 lbs. doing PLS and last year won Athlete of the Year. He’s a beast of an athlete — but what impresses me is his will. PLS helped him make the mental transformation I’m seeking. He is focused and dedicated. His word is gold and he puts in the work every single session. He’s no nonsense. You can sense his focus. I tried to keep up with him today. And I can report, I have a way to go. But on the third day of my 12-weeks of working out, I now know where I am going.

I want to be more like Bucky.

 

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Fit2Fat2Fit Blog: Day 2 Jan. 7, 2015

signup-fit4change-lrgWeight 225 lbs. Goal 200 lbs.

My bed was warm. The covers soft. My pillow fit neatly around my resting head. The red light of my alarm clock glowed “3:49.” It was one minute before the alarm would sound. One eye glared at it while the other desperately tried to stay shut. Thanks to muscle memory, my right arm came up out of the covers and turned off the alarm. My feet swung around and hit the cold wood floor.

The hardest part of my workout was done.

I put on shorts and a long-sleeved shirt. It was pretty cold, so I figured we might be inside. But JUST in case, I packed tights, gloves and a hat. My foresight saved me — we were outside today. Let’s just say a frozen artificial football field makes doing sit-ups a whole new experience.

At 5 a.m., we broke into lines. I got into my normal line 2. But John (my workout partner) and I were quickly moved into line 1. Line 1 is the top line — where the top athletes reside. I’m definitely at the bottom of the barrel when it comes to athletic ability in that group. And I know I’ll have to make it up with effort and attitude.

That’s my goal this 12-weeks. To be worthy of Line 1.

We started with Coach Neil in the weight room. (Yay, inside!) We did a weight-machine circuit and stayed at each station until our muscles burned. I think we did around 13 stations. I lost count. From there, we went to Coach Richard and the quick-foot ladder drill. My group hustled through those and I felt my half-operational lungs burning. Then it was on to Clark, were we did arm-mechanics and some core work. He had us do 60 sit-ups and then raising our feet into the air. Let’s just say the ground was chilly. Next, Coach Trahan was awaiting us, where we did dynamic warmups. (I got to dust off my inch-worm abilities.) And the cherry on top was a 200-yard run and then two 100-yard runs. My line mates turned it into a sprint. I was right there in the middle of them.

I noted the temperature when I left. It was 32 degrees and lord knows what the windchill was. And a sane person would wonder why I got out of the bed at 3:49 to be part of it. Well, I’ve seen the statistics for Mississippi. I know we nearly spend a billion dollars of Medicaid money treating obesity. I’ve seen my own family members suffer from health problems that are preventable. So when I took a moment to study my alarm clock this morning, I made the decision not to be a statistic after all.

 

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Fit2Fat2Fit Blog: Day 1

signup-fit4change-lrgJanuary 6, 2015 Weight 225 lbs. 

There was freaking frost on the football field. Frost. My virus broke last night, leaving me sleeping in a pool of sweat. What the heck was I doing standing outside in sub-freezing weather? Was I chasing pneumonia? What was I doing wearing tights? (I’m sure my PLS teammates were wondering that on, too.)

Well, I was doing my fit-test for the next 12-weeks of my Paul Lacoste Sports bootcamp. And this is my first Fit2Fat2Fit blog entry for 2015.

Here are my numbers:
Pushups. 60. Goal: 100. The most I’ve ever done consecutively: 73 — ten years ago.
Sit-ups: 50. Goal: 100. I got this one.
Overhead press: 40
Step-ups: Something like that, too.

Running was where things went to heck. My lungs are off-line from being sick, so I felt like a fish gasping on a dock. I did the 100-yard shuttle (while slipping on the icy field) in 24 seconds. I should be closer to 21 seconds.
And my mile run? A CRAPPY 8:54. Ugh. My goal is to get back in the seven-minute range.

I weigh (by their scale and with a lot of clothing on to stay warm) 225 lbs. My goal, shared my by teammates Michael and John, is to lose 25 lbs. That will require me eating VERY clean. I’m really not that fat. But I used to be.

Seven sessions ago, I started this program weighing 248 lbs. That was nearly 250 lbs. of pure fat. I couldn’t run to the fridge, either. My waist was 41 inches. I had chest pains. I was the poster child for a heart attack.

Today, my waist is 34 inches and I can run in the neighborhood of 15 miles. It’s muscle now. But I could still trim down.

In 2011, it was about getting in shape. But today, it’s about mental training. The past three weeks have been some of the most taxing of my life. I’m coming into this physically and mental beat up. PLS training teaches you that your body can achieve way more than your mind thinks it can. That’s huge. In this stressful time, that’s invaluable.

I’ll be training in Madison, outside, with my PLS friends. I love them — and I’m not being sappy. They inspire me and encourage me. And they’ll bust my chops if I’m slacking off. We all need warriors like them in our lives.

What really excites me is that several of my Clarion-Ledger coworkers are doing the program for the first time. They’ll be at Jackson State and inside. But it won’t be easy for them. I look forward to following their journey and encouraging them however I can. And I hope they have the same results I have had.

So here we go. The journey to better health has begun.

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In honor of a Cancer Hero

When you hear the dreaded three words, “you have cancer,” your world stops. And then just as suddenly, it goes into complete chaos. You grasp around wildly, trying to get traction. You desperately try to make sense of why your own body trying to kill you. That’s when you look around for people who have walked your journey before you. They become your cancer heroes. They help you decide how you will live the rest of your life.

You can decide how you are going to fight the disease. Will you quietly lie down and die? Will you just quit and get in the fetal position? Will you get angry and turn inward?

Or will you fight it with great courage and inspire others.

That’s what long-time ESPN anchor Stuart Scott did. Scott, 49, died today after a tough seven-year battle with the disease — but not before inspiring millions with his grit, fight and attitude. He used his public platform to lift others. “You beat cancer by how you live, why you live, and in the manner in which you live,” Scott said this summer while receiving the Jimmy V Perseverance Award at the ESPNs in July. (The award named for the NC State basketball coach who died of cancer in 1993.)

Scott is survived by his two daughters, Taelor, 19,and Sydni, 14 and a whole bunch of us who lost an inspiration. Scott would wear a t-shirt that read, “Everyday I fight” and he did. Now, it’s up to the rest of us live our lives to the fullest and carry that fight on for him.

Boo-yah!

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The best gift I received today

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At 7 a.m., my youngest burst into the room booming, “SANTA CAME!” From that moment, it was game on and within minutes,wrapping paper flew like leaves in a hurricane. Just looking around at the unwrapped presents, I’ve decided that no one in this house was THAT good this year — Our house looks like Santa ransacked the place. Bellies are full and dreams fulfilled — Amy did an amazing job making Christmas happen this year. The boys played. Amy enjoyed time with her parents. I spent over a hour putting stickers on a big plastic Millennium Falcon. Since then, I’ve been eating peanut butter fudge and reading the book Unbroken. Unbroken is Laura Hillenbrand’s excellent biography of Olympian and WW2 prisoner of war Louis Zamperini . It’s also the best story of forgiveness I’ve read since the New Testament. I read it last year but since the movie is out, I thought I’d reread it again.

I’m thankful I did.

Why? I struggle with forgiveness. I’m not sure if it is a genetic trait, but I have a real gift at holding grudge. And if you’ll listen long enough, I can make a strong case against several people who have hurt me or my family. I’ve grappled (at times unsuccessfully) with anger and wanting revenge. And lately, due to fatigue and some tough personal issues, I’ve felt that anger starting to boil up again. So reading about how Zamperini managed to let his demons after what he went through is the right message at the right time for me.

I love this quote from the book, “The paradox of vengefulness is that it makes men dependent upon those who have harmed them, believing that they release from pain will come only when they make their tormentors suffer.”

Wow. Of course, your tormentors don’t even care that you are angry. You’re eating yourself up while they live their lives. Like Mark Twain said, “Anger is an acid that can do more harm to the vessel in which it is stored than to anything on which it is poured.”

Zamperini suffered PTSD after the war and dreamt nightly of killing one particularly savage prison guard named the Bird. He drank to escape his nightmares, but couldn’t. One night, he awoke to find himself choking his pregnant wife. Yet, after attending a Billy Graham crusade, Zamperini forgave those who trespassed against him. He never had another nightmare until the day he died this year at the age of 97.

As he used to say, “All things work together for the good.”

I’ve been showered with amazing gifts today. But probably the best one I received was from a man I’ll never meet. Louis Zamperini reminded me of the importance of letting my grudges go. And I can’t think of a better day of receiving a gift that precious than on Christmas day.

P.S. If you enjoyed Unbroken, I highly recommend Zamperini’s own book “Don’t Give Up, Don’t Give In.” It’s a book about what he’s learned in life — and one he completed two days before he passed from pneumonia.

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Watching the numbers fly by

DarthandMeI have a birthday coming up and I’ll admit, it’s one of the first ones where I feel, well, old. As my son would say, “It’s because you are old, dad.” I guess it is because time is flying so quickly now. I don’t know.

I had cancer at 33. I’ve always joked that was my mid-life crisis. It rocked my freaking world and somedays, still does. My career was shaken up in my early 40’s after being at near the top of my profession. I guess that was another mid-life crisis. Lord knows it caused a crisis. But as traditional mid-life crises go, I really haven’t had one. I’ve never had a desire for a red sports car and I am smart enough to realize that I out-kicked my coverage when I married Amy — and I know she’d kill me if I did anything too stupid. Honestly, I’m pretty happy with my life.

So this birthday, I’ll eat cake, open presents and soak in the love of my family. I’ll put up with old jokes. I’ll see my face aging in the mirror and pluck freaky gray hairs. My knees and shoulder will ache. But then I’ll go out and kick 30-year-old’s butts in the gym. I’ll wear jeans I could have worn when I was 16 and go run 10 miles. I’ll celebrate getting to do what I love and get paid for it. I’ll look at my life for what it is — a miracle. And I’ll smile.

Numbers on a calendar don’t mean squat to me. I’m as my football coach used to say, “Just glad to be here,” — even if I do feel little old.

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Prove them wrong

Ruins2Do you have people who doubt your abilities? Who discourage you? Who don’t believe?

Prove them wrong.

Do they make little comments that sting? Are they negative? Have they hurt you in some way?

Prove them wrong.

Take the pain and use it to light a fire in your gut. Use your doubters disbelief as motivation. Remember their discouragement as you encourage those around you. Be everything they never thought you could be. Take positive action in a negative world.

Because success is the best revenge.

Prove them wrong.

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The most important workout is the one you do…

1. When you don’t feel like it.
2. When you are tired.
3. When your muscles are sore.
4. When you start back after recovering from an injury.
5. When it is dark.
6. When it is cold.
7. When it the bed is warm and the pillow is soft.
8. When you haven’t had enough sleep.
9. When you don’t think you’re in good enough shape.
10. When you realize that fitness isn’t a sprint, it’s a marathon.

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