Attack. Don’t sit back.

Rare photographic proof I ever played football. But I'm attacking in this photo -- a powerful life lesson.

Rare photographic proof I ever played football. But I’m attacking in this photo — a powerful life lesson.

Attack. Don’t sit back.

It’s something I learned playing football. And over time, it would become one of my most important life lessons.

A little known fact: I never went to fourth grade.  The brain trust at Bells Ferry Elementary School decided to move about 20 of us from 3rd grade straight to 5th grade.  Academically it was no problem. Emotionally, well, let’s just say we went through 5th grade twice.  When I  took 5th grade math for the first time, I struggled because I’d procrastinate and not do my homework. I needed the stress of a deadline to get my work done.  But for some reason, I began attacking my assignments. I’d get ahead and plow forward even when I didn’t have a fixed deadline forcing me to work. The result? My grades soared.

Ten years later, I was sitting in Accounting 2 with a solid F. I was in danger of failing my first and only class ever and was freaking out. Oh, I deserved the F. It was no one’s fault but mine. Why? I procrastinated doing the work.  I’d wait until the last minute and my homework was sloppy (I’m surprised I didn’t get a job at Enron). I struggled and started skipping classes.  I came into the final with one chance of saving my tail: If I got over a 95 on the final, I would pass the class.  Honestly, there was a better chance of a June snowball fight in New Orleans. But  I was motivated and  got busy and attacked the work. I taught myself accounting in a three-days.  The result? I got a 98 on the final — and I passed that #$%$ class with the only (and best) D I’ve ever received in my life (and went on to graduate from college with honors.)

I learned a pretty important lesson from the whole debacle: I failed when I sat back. I succeeded when I attacked.

I just finished my sixth session of Paul Lacoste training.  Each one has been successful — but some more than others.  I’ve found that I get the most out of the training when I have a solid goal and attack each evolution (exercise). This last 12-weeks were not as successful as some of the others because I didn’t attack. There were time when I went through the motions. I was discouraged. My motivation was lacking. I began to dread my training.

It was a curse that crept into the rest of my life, too.

The last few weeks have been overwhelming.  I’ve been busy, but I’ve been rudderless, almost depressed. I feel like I’ve been running through a vat of molasses. Life got crushing. Stuff fell through the cracks.

I’ve been sitting back. I failed to attack.

As I ran my 10 miles this morning, I watched the sun creep over the Ross Barnett Reservoir. It was the start of my 17,019th day on this earth. And as I ran, I had this epiphany —  I need to live by these five truths:

1. Attack life with passion.

2. Treat love like a verb, not a noun.

3. Never procrastinate.

4. Plan to live and live the plan.

5. Use my talents every day, every hour, every minute.

6. Go to bed exhausted every night.

Now if you will excuse me, I have a big pile of work to do.

I need to attack. I can’t afford to sit back.

 

 

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CARTOON: Radioactive tick

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CARTOON: Putin’s soul

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Banjo’s (and My) Dream

BanjoMickeyBanjo the dog took his last breath two years ago.  But Sunday afternoon, I saw his spirit live on.

The Black Rose Youth Theatre Ensemble (BRYTE) at Black Rose Theatre Company in Brandon, Miss. performed Banjo’s Dream, a one-act musical based on my children’s book by the same name.  As the lights dimmed, my wife Amy handed me a Kleenex. After I saw Sam the Grumpy cat take the stage, I knew I would need it.

Seeing pieces of your heart come to life is very emotional.

A few months ago, my friend Shawn Rossi asked me if I would be open to BRYTE adapting Banjo’s Dream into a musical.  I never hesitated — “Sure,” I said. I just had a feeling something special would come of this.

And I was right.  Banjo’s Dream  is absolutely wonderful.

It’s set in a pet adoption shelter (a deviation from the real Banjo’s story — he lived with three families but was placed by his breeder). The cute puppies get adopted early on. But not Banjo. Or Sam the Grumpy Cat (who in real life was rescued from a box at a The Woodlands, Tx Exxon) or the members of the Barkstreet Dog Band (the unadoptables who don’t need no stinkin’ leashes.) Banjo, left alone, (played well by Garret Ramsey) sings mournfully how he’ll never have a home. He then falls into a dream-filled sleep.  That’s when the fun really begin.  Banjo’s dreams are creatively projected onto a screen using a combination of  shadow puppetry and drawings from my book.

But like Banjo showed kids in the book, dreams do come true.  He finds a little boy who wants a dog who will love music like he does.  And at the end, Banjo is adopted by his loving family.

Then a picture of the real Banjo is projected onto the screen (with my son’s Mickey Mouse.)

My wife Amy and I lost it.

Like the stage Banjo, the real dog loved all of his families.  I always said his heart was too big to just love one family.  We were so blessed to have him in ours until the end.

But it really isn’t the end.  Banjo lives on in our hearts. And in the hearts of so many children.

A hat-tip to Dixie Gray, Makenna Blough, Lori McDade, Stacy Wolfe, Abbie Macoy, Jamie Macoy, Renee Williams, Noelle Jones, Shawn Rossi, Leigh Ramsey, Stirling VanNostrand, Paris Baker, Victoria Mills, Carley Hill, Jameson Williams, Garrett Ramsey, Mary Rose Wolfe, Mason Smith, Gray Macoy, Quentin Lea, Lily Blough, Avery DeMuth, Sawyer Smith, Simon Smith, Daleigh Ramsey, Eli Ramsey, Maddie Macoy, Jameson Williams, April Smith and Chris Mills for your creativity and hard work.  You created a rich, emotionally moving piece of art. And I can tell Banjo’s spirit flowed through you when you wrote, produced and performed it.

So let me say thank you. You gave me my puppy back for one more day.

Proving that dreams do come true.

 

 

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The spice that gives us flavor

Mississippi is no stranger to tough times.  Whether man-made or natural, we’ve had our fair share of troubles.  The Civil War ripped across this land, changing it forever. Tornadoes have scarred towns all across our state.  The 1927 flood changed the Delta forever. Hurricanes Camille and Katrina altered the Gulf Coast. And we were on the front lines for the fight for racial equality during the 1960s.  Bigotry and noxious discrimination choked this state for decades until courageous Mississippians and their out-of-state allies stood up and said, “This is wrong.”

It wasn’t easy. And like all the other tough times, sacrifices were made and lives were lost.

But from thorns grew the great roses of equality.  And today, we live in a much better world for it. Do we still have progress to make? Sure. I like to say that we are no equally dysfunctional as the rest of the states I’ve lived in. But we’ve come so far.  My children live in a world that kids 50 years ago could never have imagined.

What a fascinating and beautiful history it is. It’s full of courage and strength.

I’ve heard people say, “well, we shouldn’t talk about this or that.” I completely disagree. We should sing our history from the mountaintops — even the parts that may not be Chamber of Commerce moments. Because the tough times are  the crucible that forged us.  And like heat is to iron, it made us stronger than steel.

I see the hole in the ground against the bluff next to the State Fair Grounds. Within a few short months, a building will be there. A building housing artifacts from the Civil Rights movement.  Mississippians will be able to go in and learn a little bit more about this pivotal time about our history.  And that’s a blessing.

Mississippi is a fascinating place. And I’m glad we celebrate our history.  It’s what makes us, well, us.  It is the spice that gives us flavor.

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Fit2Fat2Fit Blog: June 4, 2014

title-12-week-lrg“Get your mind right.” Coach John Paty, Sprayberry High School 1985

“Get your mind right.” Coach Ty Trahan, Paul Lacoste Training, 2014

 

We were standing on the 50-yard line in Madison Central’s Stadium when he said it. It was zero dark thirty and the humidity was so thick you could spoon the air into your lungs.  We had done up/downs yesterday with him — and this morning, we were sore. Today our challenge was to do two burpees (that evil exercise you never really improve at) on the fake turf field, move five yards and repeat until we got to to goal line. And then we’d go back to the fifty.  It was 100 yards of burpee fun.

Coach Trahan (a man I probably wouldn’t recognize in the daylight but I know he’s the PE coach at my son’s school and defensive coordinator at Madison Central) works us hard every day.  He walked up to our line and said, “Get your mind right.”

For a moment, I was 30 years younger and on the dirt and grass of Sprayberry High School’s practice field.  And it was Coach John Paty saying the words.

“Get your mind right.”

Four words, yet so freaking hard to master.

Burpees, for lack of a better term, suck.  And when you are as flat exhausted as I have been this week, it’s easy to get a bad attitude.  Fatigue does that. It robs you of your will. It steals your purpose. It makes you lesser at anything you are doing. It makes you a quitter.  And I can tell you, when I walked up to that line and found out what we’d be doing, I had dark thoughts rolling through my mind. I wanted to just walk away.

“Get your mind right.”

High school football was fun for me but I had a real challenge to deal with my senior year. And there were times I wanted to quit. But I didn’t. It is something that has stuck with me for three decades.  And it was the moment that forged my will.

Paul Lacoste likes to say, “Don’t let fatigue make you a coward.”

As I was doing burpees this morning, fatigue was trying to make me a coward. When I was stumbling through Clark’s core workout, I was fighting fatigue’s grip.  When I was doing the circuit or running the nipple drill while carrying a 25-lb. weight, I was fighting the urge to stop. Fatigue was like the serpent in the garden of evil.  The temptation was there.  So many times I wanted to quit.

But I didn’t. I kept pushing.

“Get your mind right.”

I looked toward Coach Trahan (who I am really getting to like and respect) in the darkness and saw Coach Paty’s ghost standing there instead.  It may have been sweat in my eyes.  I’m don’t know.  But I kept busting past my fatigue.

For a brief moment, I had gotten my mind right. And my old ball coach nodded with approval.

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CARTOON: Voter ID, Mississippi Style

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Life’s True Treasures

Delta_191_wreckageDozens of travelers hustled between airport gates. A lone business traveler sat at the end of a bar and barked at his wife on a cell phone.  The bartender, trying not to eavesdrop, couldn’t help but hear every word.  The man, red faced, was obviously agitated as he berated his spouse.

“Don’t know I’m at work?!?  I’ll deal with that when I’m home!  You know it’s your job is to deal with the kids.”

The bartender grimaced when he heard, “You know it’s your job,” and just glared at the business traveler. What a jerk.

The traveler hung up the phone and said, “What are you looking at?”

The bartender sarcastically said, “Not much.”  He continued to wipe down the counter. People normally didn’t drink this early in the day. But this traveler did.

“Want to hear a story?” the bartender said.

“No.” the traveler continued to drink his beer.

“See that man over there?  His name is Todd,” the bartender continued anyway.

The man looked over his shoulder and saw a hunched over worker picking up garbage in the gate.

“Yeah, so?”

He was once like you.

The business traveler could hardly believe that. “Um, right.”

The bartender continued,”He came out here in 1985 and put his family on the plane. You know, a family like yours. Stood in the observation area and watched his family take off. At that moment he realized they were all he had.”

The traveler was still unimpressed, “What’s your point?”

“They never made it home. That plane, a Delta Lockheed TriStar, crashed in a storm in Dallas. Wiped out his wife and three kids.  Took everything from him. Needless to say, he went insane. He came back to the airport everyday waiting for the plane to come back. It never did. But he did. Day after day. After 9/11, the airport gave him a job cleaning that gate so he could get past security.  That’s the gate they left from.

“Look, it’s not my business how you deal with your family. But learn from our friend Todd.  I don’t know what you are worth, but your family is all you have.  And you don’t seem to realize that.”

The traveler put his beer down and looked at his watch.  He put a $20 down on the wood and said, “Thanks. I have a flight to change. I need to get home.”

The bartender nodded and looked as the traveler approached Todd. He put his arm around the man and passed along his condolences.  And he could see a small tear running down the old man’s face.

“We take life’s true treasures for granted,” the bartender thought as he wiped down the bar.  “There truly are no guarantees.”

 

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Cancer Survivor’s Day

abcdToday’s National Cancer Survivor’s Day — but it has been pretty much a normal day for me.

You see, once you’ve had the disease, everyday is cancer survivor’s day.

I was diagnosed with malignant melanoma 13 years ago.  But I survived.  Sure, it changed me but I’m still here. And I have the scars to prove it — inside and out.

My survival is a fact that has caused me to struggle for a long, long time.

You see, three doctors missed my melanoma. And if you know anything about melanomas, you don’t want that to happen. It’s an aggressive, nasty form form of skin cancer. It kills. And it kills quickly.

Yet, it didn’t kill me. So I wonder why I’m still here.  I’m thankful, don’t get me wrong. But I still wonder: Why?

I didn’t attend any events today. Nor did I receive any gifts. A card. Flowers. Or anything else. I didn’t view myself or today as being particularly special. But I did think about my friends who’ve died from cancer.  And I felt a tinge of survival guilt.  I do often. Really.

Then I went ahead and did what I usually do: I lived.  I guess another sunrise was enough of a gift.

So yeah, I’m a cancer survivor.  But I like to think I’m more than just that. Because I want to do more than just survive. I want to thrive. To truly live. And to spread that message to others.

My pesky malfunctioning cells taught me to appreciate the gift of every moment. And to appreciate Psalm 90:12 even more:

So teach us to number our days, that we may apply our hearts unto wisdom.

Amen.

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The Pacific Ghost

FlagThe sound of a motor awakened Stanley Wilson.

He hadn’t heard a motor in at least a decade.  Then it had been low-flying plane buzzing the island. Was this a dream? It had to be a dream. But it wasn’t — it was a dive boat heading straight toward him.

His eyes shot open.

“Oh God,” he thought, “Rescue!” He jumped out of his hammock and tripped over coconut shells. God he hated coconuts. He tried to straighten his hair, gave up and ran toward the beach.

“Rescue! It has been how many years now?” he thought.

But he didn’t know.

Stanley had lost track of time years ago. Every day was the same — well, except when typhoons roared in from the Coral Sea.  He had lived on that small island in the Solomon Islands since his raft had washed up onshore. The last real date he knew was 1943.  And judging by the wrinkles on his hands and gray in his beard, that was a long, long time ago.

The dive boat coasted into the cove, gliding toward the beach. The captain, a tall, tan man in his late 50’s, explained to the group, “We normally don’t dive on this island. The natives say there are evil spirits here. In the 40’s and 50’s, several divers came out here and never came back. But don’t worry,” the captain patted his pistol, “this will tame any evil spirits.”  The divers looked around at the crystal blue water and felt nervous.  It was rumored that this bay help several World War II wrecks and was haunted by the souls of dead Japanese.  American fighters had caught the Japanese napping and eliminated a small garrison of troops and their supplies.  Only one pilot was lost. The island was bypassed. And all the Japanese were dead.

Or so they thought.

One Japanese solider, Lt. Ei Yamaguchi had survived. Rising like a phoenix out of the ashes of burned huts, he buried his friends and vowed to kill anyone who dared touch foot on the island. And he did. He killed every person who came near it for nearly a quarter of a century — except for one man: The American he had seen float down into the sea. 

Lt. Ei Yamaguchi and Captain Stanley Wilson fought like mortal enemies for nearly a quarter of a century. They hunted and tracked each other like big game — until one of the strongest typhoons to hit the Pacific ocean nearly swept both out to sea.  Nature has a way of turning the tide of men’s souls.  The hunters became friends — until cancer took Ei Yamaguchi’s life in 1995.

Of course, neither knew the date to put on the gravestone.  A simple rock was all that marked a warrior’s final resting place.  And Stanley was left alone.  Very alone.

Until today.  He blinked his eyes as he looked at the boat glide toward the beach.  How many years had he fruitlessly lit signal fires? How many years had he prayed for this day to come? His gray, bony body walked out of the jungle and out onto the beach.

“Um, Captain, you’re not going to believe what I see,” one of the divers said pointing at the old man.

The divers, seeking relics, had found a the mother of all relics: A living World War 2 Marine pilot.

In a quonset hut in the city of Honiara on the island of Guadalcanal. 

“Let me get this straight…” the captain said, “You are a veteran of World War 2?  “The pilot looked at the old man and rubbed his beard. He did that when he was amazed. And it was hard to amaze him. “Oh, and you can call me Sid if you want.”

Stanley looked at the flatscreen TV on the wall. CNN showed images of what looked like spaceships zooming across the sky.  He was stunned at the cold air that blew out of the box in the window.  And there was a man across the room talking into a small, flat, black object.  What kind of strange place was he in?

Stanley spoke, “How’s the war coming along?” He was afraid to mention his Japanese friend. He didn’t want to be tried for treason.

“Afghanistan?” the captain said watching the look of confusion on Stanley’s eyes.

“No,” Stanley tersely said, “The war against Japan.  Are we winning?”

“Well, the captain said while rubbing his beard,” I drive a Honda.”

“So the Japanese won.” Stanley looked crestfallen. He knew that he would soon end up in a prison.

“No, Stanley. We won the war nearly 70 years ago. We dropped two atomic bombs and the Emperor surrendered.”

Stanley had no idea what an atomic bomb was. He was just trying to imagine a Japanese surrendering. “What’s the date?”

“June 2, 2014.”

Stanley gazed out the window. Tears began to burn his eyes.

“Sid, I’ve been on that island for 70 years?” he said slowly as he turned around.  The captain nodded. Stanley had already spoken more in the past 15 minutes than he had in the past 15 years. Now he was rendered speechless again.

“I’m really not sure how you survived for so long,” the captain marveled.  He had put in a call to a buddy of his who was in the U.S. Marines. “We need to get you caught back up with civilizations. Some of your old friends are coming to give you a ride home.”

Like a diver trying to get back to the surface, Stanley knew he couldn’t rise too quickly into the present.  As they waited on the Marines. the captain showed him how to use an iPad. Stanley savored reading again.  It took him about an hour until he could make sense of the words. But it came back slowly.  “Omigod,” he said. Just reading about World War 2 left his mouth hanging. He looked at the huge mushroom cloud rising over Hiroshima.

The next day, the captain put Stanley in a Jeep and drove him to the airstrip.  “Your Marine friends  don’t leave a man behind. And you, Stanley, have definitely come home.”  Both men watched as a giant C-130 cargo gracefully touched down on the small coral strip. It was the same strip he had taken off from 70 years ago.  A color guard in dress uniforms exited the plane and an officer beckoned him aboard. Now he was reentering a world he would struggle to understand.

A cemetery in Woodstock, Vermont.

Stanley stood staring at the gravestones in front of him. There were his parents. His wife. His son. They had lived a whole life thinking he was dead.  He watched as the fall leaves tumbles and swirled around him.  The parade had been jarring enough — seeing the cars and the neon lights. Getting the medal from the Commandant of the Marine Corps was bizarre, too. He looked at the statue of the men raising the flag on Iwo Jima behind him. He had lost his best friend there and didn’t even know it. But that was not all that was hard to understand. Flying on a jet at nearly the speed of sound. And then there was the Internet. Oh boy, that was a mindblower.

Stanley just looked at the stones and sighed. He had had his whole life stolen from him.  And so had Lt. Yamaguchi, too. He had found his friend’s family in Yokohama, Japan.  At least his friend would be going home, too.

But what kind of home was this? Who did he have left?  He had watched the movie Castaway in the hotel room.  He could relate to Tom Hanks’ character losing Wilson and the love of his life.  He should be in this graveyard, too. Now he was just a zombie in a life that wasn’t his.

As he stood there quietly wondering what was next in his life, a black BMW pulled up to the graveyard.  “Did we lose to Germany, too?” he thought as he looked at the German luxury car. Out stepped a 45-year old man and a little girl. Both ran toward him. The man looked surprising like he had so many years ago.

“Grandpa?”

His son had had a son. And his name was Stanley, too.

“Grandpa, is that you?” he repeated. Stanley stuck out his hand. The man grabbed him and hugged him tightly.

“I’ve never hugged a ghost before.”

The little girl hugged him, too. Stanley looked at the Tiffany-glass Jesus in the church window.  Seventy years of prayers had finally been answered.

Stanley lived out the rest of his years in Woodstock with his family.  He learned to love the Internet and his great granddaughter Annie. He craved steak and avoided seafood every chance he could.  And refused to drive Japanese cars and vowed to never touch another coconut again.

 

 

 

 

 

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