Marshall Ramsey

Because of the pain killers, the travel time between Afghanistan, Germany and Walter Reed National Medical Center seemed like it took 10 minutes. Lieutenant Frank Lowry IV dipped in and out of the fog of a narcotic consciousness. The last true memory he possessed was diving on a Taliban grenade. The rest, well, the rest were just a series of fleeting images and sounds. He remembered the padded ceiling of the medical Blackhawk. He remembered being on the tarmac in Bagram Air Force Base. He remembered the lumbering C-17 transport plane and the Mississippi accent of the pilot. And he remembered the cold darkness — a chill that enveloped him when death entered the room.  He thought of his son, Frank V. He thought of his beautiful Meg. He could see the flag being handed to her at Arlington National Cemetery. He could see the tears streaming down her soft face.  His memorial would be on Memorial Day.

Stop it. Must. Remain. Positive.

Beeps and hums cut through the drugs. He was in ICU — or at least he thought he was. He had lost massive amounts of blood high in the Afghanistan mountains on that early May day.  Blood stained the snow; his blood.  A Medal of Honor was now in the pipeline for Frank.  The only question was this: Would it be posthumous? Would his country sign the blank check he had written? Blackness entered the room again and Frank felt his life starting to slip yet again.  His heart labored to keep him alive.  He was now fighting a battle far tougher than any he had fought as a Navy SEAL. He started falling into the darkness. And then a pinprick of light opened up beneath his feet. Small at first, it opened to swallow his soul. The sensation of falling ended as rapidly as it had begin. He was standing on manicured green grass surrounded by a garden of stones.

“Beautiful isn’t it?”

The voice jarred Frank slightly.  He looked around and saw no one.  But he couldn’t help but notice how vivid the colors were. The sunrise over Washington was amazingly vivid. Mist hugged the ground.”

“I thought the same thing when I saw the South Pacific for the first time. Never have seen a sunrise like it since.”

Frank swung his head around again. Still no one.

Then, like an apparition, a man appeared beneath a giant oak tree.

“Welcome to Arlington, Frank.”

“How do you know my name?”

“Because it’s my name, that’s how.  I am Frank Lowry the first. And if you look over there, you will see my grave.”

Frank looked over at the tombstone. It read, “Sgt. Frank Lowry USMC  Born 1918- Died April 1945

His great grandfather, a Marine medic in the First Marine Division had died on Okinawa. He had singlehandedly stopped a last minute Japanese Bonsai charge on his position when he picked up a fallen Marine’s M-1 rifle. For that  he was awarded the Silver Star, the second highest combat decoration.  He left behind a wife and a son he had never met. That son fought in Vietnam. His son fought and died in the Gulf War. And now Frank carried on the family warrior tradition of saving lives.

“I understand you’re some kind of hero.”

Frank couldn’t help notice how much he looked like his grandfather. Old age had been stolen from the Marine. They were about the same age.

“I want to introduce you around. We have lots of heroes here — but only a handful of Medal of Honor recipients.  You’ll be quite the hit.”

Frank looked at his great grandfather. “Medal of Honor? What are you talking about?”

“I guess you haven’t heard.  You’re about to enter select company. Less than 3,500 Medal of Honors have been presented.  Admirals will now salute you, boy. You saved many souls the day you were wounded. Wait until I introduce you to President Theodore Roosevelt. You know he’s the only President who has received the Medal of Honor?” His grandfather pulled an apple out of his coat pocket. and  took his K-bar knife and began to peel the apple.  “Anyone can take a life. But a true warrior knows when to save one. You, my boy, are a warrior.”

Frank looked down on the city of Washington, DC.  He remembered taking his son to the zoo and the monuments. How they had gone to the Smithsonian and seen a plane like his own father had flown in the Air Force. “That’s Grandpa’s plane,” Frank’s son shouted in a mixture of glee and pride. The Lowrys were all about service. And they were about sacrifice as well.

“So, you want the tour? Or do you want to go back?
Frank looked around at all the tombstones. How many of them had been given such an opportunity? How were given a second chance? He thought of little Frankie. And then he thought of Meg.  And then he saw all the other heroes standing next to their graves.

“I’ll always be waiting here for you.  And so will he.” And out of the mist, a man in a flight suit appeared.

It was Frank’s dad.

Frank ran and hugged his father. He looked at him and tried to say everything he had wanted to say to him for the past 23 years. But his father wouldn’t allow him to speak. He just squeezed him and said, “It’s OK son, I know. I have been watching out for you. It’s not your time. You have to go back and raise your son. You have to teach him what our sacrifice is all about. You have to pass on the warrior tradition.”

“But, Dad…”

Frank felt his body convulse again. The idyllic scenery of Arlington ripped away  from him.  Lightness suddenly went back to black.  He felt another shock that ripped open his eyes.

“We have a pulse!” one of the doctors yelled. Another doctor pulled the paddles from his chest and smiled.

Frank had reentered the world of the living. The beauty of Arlington transformed back into the sterile ICU of Walter Reed. He looked up at the doctors, stared at the man who had just brought him back to life. Frank thought, “Thank you.” He still had some living to do.

He looked at the doctor again.  The man winked and said, “You’re welcome hero.”

It was his Great Grandfather.

Built during the Great War, refurbished during the Gulf War, the college History building smelled like dank wood and hopes of a better future.  Inside one of its lecture halls was an mini-session American History class (down to seven members because it was the Friday before Memorial Day.)  The average age of the students was 18 — except for one outlier. His name was David Lowe and he was 25 years old.  One of the other students had known David years before when he hung out with his older brother. But he had known a younger, wilder David Lowe. This one was different. Quieter. More focused. Serious. Almost distant.

The bell rang and the professor came in carrying a battered leather briefcase full of marked-up test papers.  “The good news is that we have Monday off. The bad news is you had better be studying. Your test grades were TERRIBLE. Well, except, yours David.  Another A for you.”

The professor’s clothes were ill-fitting and tattered.  He had a closely cropped gray beard and if he had been wearing a short-sleeved shirts, some of the students might have noticed a “Semper Fidelis” tattoo on his right forearm.  The professor had seen the world starting in Vietnam. Now he was at this small Midwestern College enjoying peace and his well-deserved tenure.

Groans emitted from the other students as the professor handed out the quizzes. “It’s obvious to me, you completely missed the point of my lecture on Memorial Day.  Because I am so nice and it’s the day before a holiday, I am going to let you stand up before the class and talk about what Memorial Day means to you for extra credit. Who’s first?”

Adrianne, a pretty blonde with glasses, walked up to the front of the room.  She had excelled in High School and was at the college on scholarship.

“Memorial Day is a day off for me.  I will be going to the beach with my friends and I look forward to starting my tan.”

The professor rolled his eyes and called up the next student named Clay. Clay brushed his black hair out of his face and began.

“I get to sleep late.  Me and my buddies are going to buy some beer and drink it until it is gone.”

The class laughed.  The professor called up the next student.

“Hi, I’m Sam. I’m going to cook out with my friends. Memorial Day is about friends.”

The professor nodded as he called up the next student. And the next student. And the next.

He then got to David.

David limped slightly as he walked up to the podium. He looked out at his classmates with tears in his eyes.

“Memorial Day is about sacrifice.  It’s about men and women giving our country blank checks and then having them cashed.  Without those sacrifices, you wouldn’t be able to sleep late, drink beer, work on your tan and be with your friends.” David paused. He really wasn’t  lecturing his classmates. He was just trying to make them understand. “Speaking of friends, I can’t be with mine because of a really bad day.” David lifted his pant leg, revealing a prosthetic. “I lost this. They lost so much more.”

He turned, looked at the professor and said, “Semper Fi,” and sat down.

The class stared at him stunned.

The Professor smiled and said, “Semper Fi, David. And thank you for your service.”

The rest of the class all turned and thanked him as well.

Without knowledge, it’s hard to properly memorialize.  And in one small college classroom, David Lowe’s friends’ sacrifices in Afghanistan would never be forgotten.

A great attitude is like bacon. It makes everything better.  The trick is, how do you get through at day when your attitude isn’t as good as it should be? The secret lies with those who surround you. 

Mine has been, well, not as great as it could be.  I guess that is normal — you can’t be “on” all the time.  If we had to rely on whether or not we “wanted” to work out, we’d probably quit after a few weeks.  But we keep at it because it becomes habit.

Habit has definitely kicked in this week.

That said, a great attitude helps you get the most out of whatever you are doing. Paul Lacoste’s Boot Camp is no exception. You go into it with a great attitude, you will see amazing results. Bad attitude? You will suffer the whole 12 weeks.

I came into today worried about my Achilles tendon. (Now that will cause a bad attitude.)  I stretched it and stretched it some more. I was loaded up on ibuprofen and had iced it the previous evening. I warmed up with a 1/2 miles of running and stretched it come more.  We did warm-stretches and then went into the weight room to work on shoulders (my shoulders are my weakest muscle group, so I am always thankful for shoulder day!). From there we did shuffle/sprint/shuffle drills. Not Achilles tendon friendly. Then we did ladder drills. Not Achilles tendon friendly. Then we carried a 25 lb. weight around a box 1/4 the size of the football field. Definitely not Achilles tendon friendly. We finally wrapped it up with three wall stands (on our hands with a push-up) and up-hill sprints. Not sure that was Achilles tendon friendly, either — but that point, I had given up worrying about it. I just did the work.

Tendon held up fine. It was sore and probably cost me a step. I’ll ice it again tonight. I’ll also ice my attitude. I want it to get better, too.

Surround yourself with good people.  Because you will have bad days when you are pushing through on habit alone.  And on those days, if you have good friends, you will soar even when your attitude isn’t where it’s not supposed to be. I am discovering my new line, Line 2, is full of not only talented athletes, but solid people as well. I have been picked up and encouraged the last three weeks.  That’s the secret of life.  You can’t do challenges alone.  Especially with a bad attitude.

Because it isn’t Achilles tendon friendly.

The Angel of Death doesn’t actually do her own killing. She hires hit men, mercenaries if you will, to do her dirty work. These are people who’ll trade a little bit of their souls for more time on this Earth.  Today’s killer was chosen to take out Fredrick Simms II, an investment banker and all around jerk.  Aged 45, Fredrick was on his second divorce and had screwed over more people than WorldCom and Enron combined. The Angel of Death admired his ruthlessness. But he had to go.  It was just his time.

Three-time con Barry McReady was assigned the job of eliminating Fredrick. The Angel of Death laid out the plan: Barry would meet Fredrick (who was on a business trip to New Orleans) on the corner of Conti and Bourbon Streets in the French Quarter. Barry would approach Fredrick and ask for money. Then when Fredrick refused, Barry would shoot him in the stomach with a .22 snub-nosed revolver. Fredrick would bleed-out in front of total strangers and Barry would run away.

At least that is how it was supposed to happen.

But Barry had been in a loser his whole life. And on the night of his biggest job ever, he messed that up, too. The gun went off, sending Fredrick to the ground. But the gun-shot wound was too far to the right, making it, at best, superficial. Sure, Fredrick bled. But not enough to kill him. Barry looked down at the man he thought he killed and ran.

But Barry didn’t see the police car responding to the gunshot.  The Ford Crown Victoria hit the running shooter and Barry’s head his the pavement. He was killed instantly.

Fredrick’s consciousness faded as he cheated death and slipped into a coma.

The Angel of Death doesn’t tolerate failure. And because of it, Barry paid with his life and soul. She looked down at Fredrick’s body on the ground. To make up for the screw up, Fredrick was rewarded with a second chance.  The Angel of Death wiped Barry’s memory and slate clean.

Fredrick’s memory would come back in bits and pieces — but only the good parts. The dark side of Fredrick Simms died that night in the French Quarter.  By the time he left Charity Hospital, Fredrick as a new man who had to fit back into his old world.

It wouldn’t go well.

“What’s wrong with him?” one of his partners asked.

“I don’t know. He seems, so, well you know, nice.”

“That gun shot wound took his edge. We can’t have that kind of cancer around here.”

The firm of Ruthless, Ruthless and Simms soon lost one of its founding partners.  Within four months, Fredrick given a huge severance package and sent into a new life.

That night, surrounded by cardboard packing boxes, Fredrick looked where he could move. He wanted to start a new life in a new place. A place where he could start a new old life. Fredrick got on his laptop and booked a one-way flight to Mobile, Alabama.

He was going home.

Fredrick had graduated form the Mitchell College of Business at the University of Business in 1991. Talented enough to go Harvard, he did just that for grad school. He went on to earn his MBA and moved back home to make his fortune. He worked ungodly hours in a skyscraper overlooking the Mobile River shipyards.  While on a weekend trip to Orange Beach, he met a young girl working in one of the souvenir shops.  Her name was Stacy Duval and she whitest smile and tannest skin.  After two weeks, they had gotten married and lived in Fredrick’s small bungalow near Fairhope.  If passion gave off electricity, they could have lit downtown Mobile for 50 years.

But Fredrick’s dark side soon revealed itself.  His ego was too big for one woman, even if she was perfect.  Stacy left Fredrick and divorced him soon afterward. Fredrick left for New York. The rest is, as they say, misery.

Now a decade later, Fredrick would win her back.  But proving you’re not a monster is easier said than done.  He went back home in search of the first love of his life.

Stacy had remarried a year after her divorce from Fredrick to an Sergeant Stan Hughes, U.S. Army. They had a daughter named Julia after his first tour of duty in Afghanistan. But soon he was gone again. And again. And again. Three months into his third tour, the Angel of Death used the Taliban to take Stan from this world.  Stacy was now a widow, divorcee and a single mom. She vowed on Stan’s casket that she would raise their daughter well.

She watched on that muggy July morning as his casket dropped down into the ground. And her heart went into the ground with it. “I’ll never love anyone again — well, other than Julia.”  Stacy’s heart grew cold.

The Angel of Death watched all of this and for one of the first times ever, felt guilty.  She would intervened once again.

Tourist traffic choked the idyllic streets of Fairhope.  Summer was the busy season for Gulf Coast Tours and Clarence the driver cursed he tried to navigate his tour bus through the glut of cars. He felt pressure in his chest. He felt weird, almost odd.  Sweat beaded his forehead and pain shot up his left arm.  It was his time to go.

And the Angel of Death was handling this one personally.

The driverless bus creamed through the intersection, aiming right for Stacy and Julia in the crosswalk.

But before it could hit them, a man ran from the curb and pushed them out of the way onto the ground.

The bus creamed into a building, and tipped perilously.  The man who pushed Stacy and Julia out of the way then got up and ran over to the bus to help rescue the passengers. He grabbed an extinguisher and put out a small fire.  Other than Clarence the bus driver, there were no other  fatalities. The Mobile Press-Register would profile the hero in Sunday’s paper. His name was Fredrick Simms. And he was just in the right place at the right time.

Stacy looked at her rescue with complete disbelief.

“Fredrick, is that you?”

She brushed sand and gravel out of her bloody knee. Tears welled in her eyes. She then started talking to herself.

“It can’t be Fredrick. He would have run the other way.”

Fredrick tenderly felt the burns on his hands. He looked at his ex-wife and the little girl with her. Tears started to swell in his eyes, too.

“Stacy? Stacy is that you?”

“You saved us.”

“You saved me.” Fredrick looked at her. “I have missed you.”

Stacy felt the pain from so many years ago stab at her heart. She started to back away.

“NO! No! I am a changed man. Promise!” Fredrick stopped and raised his shirt. A grotesque scar showed where the bullet had killed evil Fredrick.

Stacy looked at the red scar and said, “You need to get your hands looked at.”

Fredrick looked at them. They were bright red and burned. But he couldn’t feel any pain. His heart beat wildly.

“Nah. I’m alright. Can I buy your beautiful daughter an ice cream cone? It’s been a tough afternoon. Maybe even one for you?”

Julia looked at this man she once knew. Something was different about him.  Something special. He now had a glow of goodness about him.

All three of them walked through the police and crowd to get ice cream. And into a new life together.

The Angel of Death smiled. It was the first time she had ever played matchmaker. It would also be the last. Yes, she would successfully come for Fredrick Simms again — just not for another 50 years.