An interview with my dad

I have watched 10 minutes of the 30 minute interview with my dad. A few thoughts:
1. I had started to forget how his voice sounded. But he is his old self in this video and his voice came right back to me. It was like a warm hug.
2. It is fun hearing his reflections of who I am and who I was growing up. He held me in high regard — probably even more so than I thought. Dad could BS but he wasn’t a BSer. If he said it, he meant it.
3. It is very obvious from his answers that he loved my sisters and me more than anything else in his life. His eyes sparkle when he talks about us.
4. He had a very warm way about him but at times could be a bit distant. He never hugged me until his own father died — I think it was just his generation. But this is him 100% through and through. He is funny, witty and sharp. The dementia had not kicked in at this point and I am so grateful to have this recorded. This is my memory of my dad.
5. Damn, I miss him. His sickness was so horrifying that I never broke down in tears when he died. I was just numb, like someone punched me in the stomach. I held all the pain inside. A small part of me was relieved he was not suffering from the dementia anymore. Today, I broke down. I’ll have to watch the rest of it in the privacy of my own home.
Bonus: I will share this with my sisters and will show my sons. They will understand a little more about the good man their grandfather was.