Where the fog met his self-doubt, there was a counterclockwise swirl of hopelessness and gloom. He sat in his empty office building, looking out at the gray world. Papers were strewn everywhere on his desk; it had the air of place where no one cared. He didn’t at the moment. The world had lost faith in him (or so he thought). And he was about to lose faith in the world.
It was a tragedy of Shakespearean proportions. The world just didn’t need one more person who didn’t care. And he was at the tipping point of joining that undistinguished and depressing club.
But when he was about to be smothered by his own gloom, a single sunbeam broke through the low-lying clouds. Its warm rays illuminated his heart with hope. He knew what it was going to take to change: Action. Caring for others. Things he could control. He watched the dense fog burn off and then got to work.
When others lose faith in you, it’s a problem. When you lose faith in yourself, it’s a tragedy.
Profound….thanks for the thoughts this morning.
AMEN! Even though what happened was not your fault, it will be a long time before you feel you can trust an employer and you will constantly look for ways to support your family to allievate hardships in case it happens again. Taking on several jobs at this juncture is a perfectly logical move. After a few years, you will know you learned a great deal from this experience and you will never ever put all your eggs in one basket unless you have complete control of that basket.
You pretty much nailed it. I have no trust, am working like mad and am in a constant state of panic. I’ve done great things this last year and still like I’m about to fall off a cliff. Thank you for what you wrote.
That first sentence is wonderful. It pulls us into the vortex with you.
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