Fit2Fat2Fit Blog: Day 16

title-8-week-lrgThe theme for the day was running. As in “running your @$$ off” running. (I did lose three pounds this week, so I kinda ran my @$$ off.)

We started with wall sits. You’re sitting there eating your cheese danish and wondering, “Marshall, what exactly is a wall sit?” Why I’m glad you asked.  You lean your back against the wall and bend your legs at a 90-degree angle (like you are sitting down.) But wait! There’s more! Then you pass a 45-lb. weight back and forth (which I like because it takes your mind off the fact you are sitting there creating a lactic acid surprise.)  You do that over and over until your legs scream, “Uncle.” Or worse.

Then we went over to Scotty and ran gassers/suicides.  Forwards, backwards, sideways you name it.  I felt like an old, creaky yo-yo. Fifteen minutes into it, the running came down like rain.

A visit to Wayne involved big tires, sprints and planks.  What’s a plank? We put our toes on the tires and held ourselves up with our elbows. It ain’t as easy as it sounds.

Then the real running began.  A quick lap (1/4 mile) around the track led to a trip to the football stadium where we ran the steps.  Then rinse and repeat.  A 15-minutes ’til the end, hustled the end zone and ran 100-yard sprints.  (I like to pretend I am running a touchdown).  We did some of them with bear crawls thrown into it.  Somewhere in there we weighed. I’ve lost three pounds so far.  (But am more muscular so I’m thinner.)

Tomorrow morning, I’ll get up and go running with some of my line-mates.  And then Saturday, I plan on running a long, long run — maybe 13.1 miles if I get up early enough.

Next step on this journey is to start totally overhauling my eating habits. But I’ll save that one for another day. Right now, I’m unscrewing my legs and throwing them in a vat of ice.

 

 

 

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Thursday Free-For-All

Good morning! Hope you’re having a great morning so far!  Here’s a shot of yesterday’s sunset in Madison, Mississippi.

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Bob

UacrashThe hot noonday sun baked the large crowd assembled in the country graveyard. I could feel swear running down my face as Bob’s casket pulled hard at my tired arms.  I looked at the other five pallbearers and saw they were struggling just as much as I was.  The big metal box was heavy. Probably from Bob’s big heart.

But I have a feeling we were struggling from something much deeper than the weight of the casket.

If I had to get up and describe Bob’s life, I really don’t know where I’d start.  Maybe it would be on July 19, 1989.  Bob was on United Airlines Flight 232. That may not mean much to you; it has been awhile since it was the lead story on the Nightly News.  Flight 232 was the DC-10 that crashed in Sioux City, Iowa.  It wasn’t Bob’s time to go but unfortunately it was 111 others’.   Bob was one of the 185 people who stumbled out of the wreckage.  He emerged from the flames and corn a different man.  When his life flashed before his eyes, he didn’t much care for what he saw.

Bob and his wife Suzanne moved to my town soon after that and he changed his whole life.  Tumbling down the runway and the following fire forged him like steel.  He developed a sense of urgency that day. Bob became a man of action.

He knew exactly how precious life is. And how fleeting it can be.

Five years ago, he lost Suzanne to Ovarian Cancer. He would argue about the term “lost” — he liked to tell people he was only temporarily separated from her.  That’s how Bob rolled.  Put a half-empty glass on the table and he’d correct you by saying, “It’s half full.”

Bob wasn’t a Pollyanna-ish kind of guy, though. Oh, no. Not Bob.  He knew pain. The burn scars on his back were a constant reminder of how life could be cruel.  I wish Bob had met Viktor Frankl. Frankl was the Holocaust survivor whose book Man’s Search for Meaning guided Bob’s life.  Bob would come over while I was cutting grass, bringing me a cold beverage and say, “It’s not what happens to you. It’s how you react to it.”

That was Bob. Thinking of others first. There wasn’t a selfish bone in the man’s body.

“It’s the secret to life,” he’d say. “Become the best you can be and then turn around and give your best to others.”

I’m really going to miss Bob.

Bob was like bacon. He made everything better. Of course, he’d joke, “I clog hearts?”   No, Bob made hearts stronger.

We were sitting on my front porch on late August afternoon. I had lost my job and he just sat there and rocked.  After ten minutes of silence, he looked at me and said, “You can’t build on what you’ve lost. You have to focus on what you have left and move on from there.”  It was hard to have a pity party around Bob.

He made others want to be better.  He “leaned in” and “paid forward” before it became popular.

Today we’re carrying Bob to the grave. Giant shoes are being left behind.  Giant empty shoes.  I feel like I’ve lost a part of me.  But Bob would disagree. He say, “You’re only temporarily separated from me.”

As soon as we cover his casket, I have big shoes to fill.

Because my friend Bob truly lived as Mark Twain once said, “Let us endeavor so to live that when we come to die even the undertaker will be sorry.”

See you soon Bob.

 

 

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Being Weird

I’m weird. Yes, you probably already know that. But I live a little differently. We live, depending on who you ask, in the fattest state in the nation. And Men’s Health Magazine said that Jackson is a lazy city.  But I get up every morning at 4 and workout.

That apparently makes me odd. Statistically an outlier. A freak.

I’m not going to preach at you about exercise.  It’s a personal choice I make.  No, let me rephrase that. It’s a choice I make for my family. They deserve the best of me.  I’m 45 and have a six-year-old. He deserves dad to be active when he grows up.  I intend to be there for him.

I know, I know, you’re probably saying, “Well you have to die of something.” I hear that one a lot. And “I won’t run unless something is chasing me.” You want to know what is chasing me? Diabetes. Heart disease. Lung disease. Cancer. I’ve seen what the last years of someone’s life looks like when you are inactive, overweight and smoke.

No thanks.

Have you noticed what is happening to health insurance? No, I’m not talking Obamacare. I mean the stuff you (hopefully) get at work. It costs more and covers less. And it won’t get any better any time soon. If an apple a day keeps the doctor away, I’m going to have apple breath. Plain and simple.

So if you need me, I’ll be out there running. And when I get older, I’ll be walking.  Or swimming. Or biking.  And I’ll be shoving good food into my mouth. (except for M&Ms –which I have a slight addiction to).

I’m going to be living healthy.

Because I’m weird.

 

I pass this tree when I run. It is one of my favorites.

I pass this tree when I run. It is one of my favorites.

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Fit2Fat2Fit Blog: Day 15

title-8-week-lrgMy duck walks were more like “suck” walks.

Clark yelled at us because our form wasn’t good. Truth be known, my form was much better than my knees.  There are few times I feel my age. Doing stuff that requires me to bend my knees is one of those times.

We did lots of squats, mountain climbers, burpees, running, core work (aka sit-ups).  One of my favorites, passing a rubber ball to a partner while you do sit-ups, really woke me up.

I walked off the field tired. But I have to say, today was one of my favorite days.

Why?

I am in a great line. And I got to know them better this morning.

I workout with people who are smart, funny and have heart. They work hard and will push you when you need pushing and lift you when you need lifting.  They’ve figured out the “Next Level” is something bigger than themselves.

You can put up with a lot of pain when you have that kind of support.

That’s why I get up so darn early.  Now to go work on my duck walks.

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Wednesday Free-For-All

Good morning! Hope you are having a great morning so far.  Looks like another spectacular late May day.

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Fit2Fat2Fit Blog: Day 14

title-8-week-lrgSuccess isn’t a result. It’s how you live your day to day life. It’s doing something when you don’t feel like it. And today was one of those days.

I didn’t feel like working out today. In fact, I felt like sleeping until noon. My cold continues to hang on and I’m having a really tough time breathing (my son has what we think is strep throat, so I’m not the only sick one in the house).  I woke up and almost went back to sleep. I almost turned around while driving to Madison Central. I almost left after sitting in my car in the parking lot.

“What’s one more day off?” I thought.

Well, to begin with, it’s one more day off.  I would have lost a little upper body strength. I would have lost a little conditioning. The little rest I got would be offset by the lack of conditioning. I would have missed the positive reinforcement I get from my linemates. I would have not had the feeling of accomplishment I have now.

I would have missed three-man boards (and eating lots of little rubber pellets from the fake football field that flew into my mouth — rubber fiber.)   I would have missed  Scotty’s infamous T-drills.  I would have missed bearcrawling with Wayne.  I would have missed the gauntlet (running up and down the football stadium). I would have missed the big W drill and running more of the gauntlet.

I would not have been successful.

Success isn’t a result. It’s how you live your day to day life. It’s doing something when you don’t feel like it. And today was one of those days.

 

 

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Tuesday Free-For-All

Good morning. Hope you have a great week.

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Fit2Fat2Fit Blog: Day 13

title-8-week-lrgToday is lucky 13.

We had a workout this morning. I didn’t go.

I know — 80% of success is showing up, so therefore, I failed.

I’m sick. Have been for the past three days with some kind of respiratory junk. I’m coughing like mad and am achy. I feel like crap.  And I’m exhausted. I’ve been on the run for the past two weeks. Yesterday I cleaned my house until 11 p.m.  I am dead dog tired.

The alarm went off at 4:09 and I didn’t answer its call.

Not because I’m lazy. Because I knew I couldn’t do my exercises correctly.  I feel like I have asthma — I can only imagine how I would have done while pushing a board.

So what did I do? I slept until 7 a.m. (like sleeping to noon for me) and then got out and ran.  And ran. And ran some more.

I felt like crud for the first couple of miles.  And then I got into my grove.

My legs were concrete.  My lungs ached.  I coughed and wheezed. I sweated profusely. In my mind, I was shedding the virus. I was showing it that I didn’t want it into my body.  I wasn’t playing around.  Sure, no one would accuse me of running fast. But I was running.

I ran 10 miles in all. With a cold. On a muggy May morning.

And then I got home and cut the backyard.

I missed my PLS training this morning.  And I still have a cold. But my lungs got a good a workout.

I was out there, in the game and moving forward.

And that’s all that matters.

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Franklin’s Hudson’s Memorial Day

As the small ship cut through the light surf, Franklin Hudson scanned the horizon for Hell. His ancient eyes were as blue as the surrounding sea. He stood on the bow, watching the tropical island loom on the horizon. Salt spray lashed his leathery skin. A handful Cumulonimbus clouds exploded into the sky, looking like voBeachlcanic sentinels guarding the little spit of coral.

The old man was thankful that it was only the clouds guarding it.

“You ever been here before?” The tanned German tourist standing next to him asked in passable English.

“Once. A long time ago.”

“Did you come to dive? The diving is world class here. That’s why I’m here.”

The old man grinned at the young man’s innocence. He had been born during a time of peace. Peace earned by the old man’s generation.

“Not exactly. I did spend a short time in the water. But I was on land most of the time.”

“When were you here last?”

The old man was going to answer, “Every night in my nightmares,” but gave a simpler, more direct answer.

“September 15, 1944.”

The German tourist’s eyes opened.  “Oh. You were in the war?”

“Yes. I am a Marine. I was in the war. And the war is still in me.”

The old man rubbed his leg, where shrapnel still resided and continued, “I’ve heard the diving is spectacular here.  I hope you have a good trip.”

The young man smiled and said, “Thank you.  My great grandfather was in the war, too.  I’m glad you two never met.”

The old man smiled again.  He liked the kid’s sense of humor.  “Me, too. Is he still alive?”

“Nein. He died in the war.  Was killed when his Messerschmitt 109 was shot down over France. My great grandmother was never the same after that. She hates you Yanks.”

“I understand completely,” he said as he patted the kid on the back. “I understand completely.”

The old man thought of the conversation he had had last week.

“YOU CAN’T GO! YOU ARE 88-years-old.  There is no way I will allow you to make a trip like that alone.”  The dark-haired middle-aged woman stood with her hands on her hips.

“If the Imperial Japanese Army can’t stop me, you can’t either. I changed your diaper. You and your mother and even your grandmother couldn’t keep me from going.  I have something important to do. And if you’ll excuse me, I’m going to do it.”  He picked up a small container, gathered tickets and looked at the destination on the paper.

He was headed back to Peleliu Islands.

Franklin Hudson had never mentioned his part in World War 2 to his family. But on the day he turned 85, he began to open up about it. The family had known not to wake him from a deep sleep and knew he would have terrifying nightmares, but they were horrified to hear what hell he had seen in his life.  The retired elementary school principal had seen and done things in the name of his country that no man should ever have to do. But he did them. He did it out of loyalty to his country, Corps and companions.  Franklin Hudson, a meek man by nature, was a trained killer who had won World War 2.  And after the war, he suppressed it deep inside his torn soul.

Now, on the sunset of his life, he was going to let it all go in the only place he could.

“Welcome to Peleliu!” the young, tanned lady greeted him at the dock. “Are you Mr. Franklin Hudson?”

The old man nodded.  He could smell familiar smells.

“Very good. If you will sit here, and I will call your tour guide. Welcome back Mr. Hudson. And on behalf of the residents of Peleliu, thank you.”

“I have to admit,” he smiled as he sat,” this is a much warmer greeting than the last time I was here.”

He looked over at the Japanese tourists sitting over in the corner. They probably had lost a loved one here, too. A slight flicker of hatred boiled up in his heart, but was quickly extinguished. Time had healed that wound (Although he still yelled at his granddaughter when she had bought a Mitsubishi TV. “THEY BUILT THE PLANE THAT KILLED MY FELLOW MARINES!” he screamed at the young girl.  There were still some of those planes in the jungle near the airfield he had captured.)  In hindsight, they hadn’t even needed to capture the island.  Nearly 1,800 Americans had paid the ultimate price to help cover General Douglas MacArthur’s effort to retake the Philippines.  He looked over at the Japanese tourists again. 20,000 of their countrymen had died here as well.  Franklin nodded at the tourists.  Their families had suffered, too.

The heat and humidity was like a thick, wet coat smothering his soul and as bad as he remembered it. He had never been that thirsty before or since. In preparation for the invasion, the Japanese had poisoned the watering holes.  The only water he had for the first couple of days tasted like the oil barrels it came ashore in — when he got water at all.  This time he came prepared. He had a bag full of water and a small container. He took out his handkerchief and wiped the sweat from his wrinkled brow.  He hadn’t sweated like this since New Orleans, his childhood home.

He had one friend while growing up in the Crescent City.  His name was Johnny Morton and they lived next door to each other on St. Charles Avenue in the Garden District.  Franklin and Johnny had everything in common. Both were sons of college professors. Both were excellent students and athletes. And both had signed up for the U.S. Marine Corps the day they turned 18. They were going to kill Japs, the very nonpolitically correct word they used back in 1943.

By a twist of fate, they were together than day as the landing craft stormed ashore.  Franklin remembered Johnny throwing up. He remembered how pail his face was. He remembered them scrambling over the side of the boat into the warm, tropical water. He could see the blood flowing in currents around the boat. And he remembered the Japanese bullet tearing into Johnny’s head.  As he ran toward the airfield, he turned one last time to see his friend twitching on the sand.  Franklin Hudson never saw Johnny Morton, his best friend in the  whole world, again.

Fate and two feet had spared his life.

The car stopped near the ocean. The guide said, “The Marines landed at 08:32 on 15 September; the 1st Marines to the north on “White Beach…”  The old man looked at him distantly and said, “I know. I was there.”

The island looked so different now. Vegetation, blasted by Naval gunfire and napalm, had grown back.  Hunks of iron were now rusting into history — much like survivors like himself.  Franklin felt his blue eyes water.  Moisture streamed down his wrinkled face.

There it was. The very place where he had come ashore.

“Excuse me.”

The guide stopped and said, “yes?”

“I’d like to take a moment and walk on the beach. I have a few things I’d like to do.”

The guide, recognizing a moment to smoke a cigarette said, “sure” and helped the old man out of the car.

The path was worn.  The calm water lapped and tickled the land.  Franklin wiped his forehead again and took a long sip of water from a water bottle.  He got his bearings walked down the beach about 25 yards. He sighed and sat down, feeling the warm sand on his bottom.

“I was hoping you’d return.”

A lone figure walked down from the beach from the opposite direction.

“I couldn’t leave you.”

“But you did.”

“You were dead the second the bullet hit you.  My sergeant was screaming for me to move.  I had to keep going.”

Johnny Morton sat next to his old friend and then put his arm around him.

“You’ve really gotten old.”

“And you look the same. I see you every night in my nightmares.”

“I know. I visit you every night. I haven’t found peace.”

Both men sat, watching a storm brew in the distance.

“We won the battle and the war.  I went home and married Juliet Jenkins.  You remember her from high school — the cute blond that sat in Mr. Cummings Math class. We had three kids and they each had two.  I went to Tulane and then worked as an elementary school principal and moved to Marietta, Georgia.  New Orleans flooded a few years ago from a hurricane. You wouldn’t have believed the chaos. Juliet died ten years ago from cancer.”

Johnny Morton sat silently.

“To answer the question you haven’t asked, yes it was worth it. Our country became great because of sacrifices like yours. I miss you, Johnny. We all missed you.  Your girlfriend  Samantha went on to marry another man, but I know she didn’t love him like she loved you.  She named her first son John.”

A tear streamed down the ghost’s face.

“I’ve traveled halfway around the world to be with you today.  I’ll be with you permanently soon. Time is about to do what the Japanese couldn’t. Like you, I’ll be history. But like you, I won’t be forgotten.”

Franklin stood up, pulled a small container out his bag and walked to the water’s edge. There he sprinkled ashes into the sea.

Johnny smiled. “Thank you, friend.”

“Happy Memorial Day, Johnny.”

And at that moment, Hell transformed into Heaven. And Franklin Hudson helped an old friend find peace at last.

 

 

 

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