Saturday Free-For-All

GOOD morning!  About to go for a long run with my sons.

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Against the Wind

“It’s seemed like yesterday, but it was long ago. Jane was lovely she was the queen of my nights. There in the darkness with the radio playing low…”

The familiar song blasted out from his iPod’s tiny white headphone speakers.  It was Bob Seger’s Against the Wind — one of his favorites. He got lost in the song while he did his morning run.

A firm headwind pushed against him like God’s hand shoving him back.  Trees had broken and power lines had snapped. It was a rough morning to run.  The wind was gusting up to 40 mph right into his face. (Imagine driving with your parking break on. That’s how he felt.) He smiled — at least the run back would be easy.  “I bet I can outrun a Kenyan with a tailwind today,” he thought while cresting the hill and catching another gust in the face.

Footstep after footstep.  It seemed like his whole life had turned into running into a headwind.  But he kept running, figuratively and literarily.   This was no time to quit.

“I guess I lost my way, there was so many roads. I was living to run and running to live.”

He had been thrown under the bus by people he had respected. His career was in doubt. His family was in shambles.  It seemed like no one believed in him. It was like life had thrown 1,000 paper cuts at him at once. And then dipped him in rubbing alcohol. But he kept his head up and pressed forward.  He ran swiftly past self-pity.

“I found myself seeking shelter against the wind.”

Shelter. Faith in a better future was his shelter. He knew that eventually the headwind would turn into a tailwind. He had to keep pushing. He had to keep fighting.  He had to keep running.

“Deadlines and commitments. What’s it leave in, what’s it leave out. Against the Wind, I’m still running against the wind. I’m older now but still running against the wind.”

He felt his heart pounding. He was alive. He still believed in his dreams. And he knew he could keep fighting. Better days were ahead. So he continued to run against the wind.

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Fit-to-Fat-to-Fit Blog: Day 28

Goal weight: 195 lbs.

We ran 13 laps on the track this morning. (We meaning the whole 5 a.m. Fit4Change team). The temperature was mild and there was a stiff NW wind (15 mph gusting to 40.)  So one direction we ran really fast. And the other direction is was like running into a brick wall. I ran strong and covered the 3.25 miles faster than I normally run a 5K (3.1 miles).  The difference seven weeks of intensive training makes.

When a plane flies to Atlanta, the pilot sets the coordinates and takes off. Sometimes along the way, the wind will blow the plane slightly off course.  The pilot adjusts the coordinates so the plane can safely land in Atlanta. If the pilot stuck with the initial plan, the plane might end up in say, Macon, Georgia or worse. I’ve hit some slight crosswinds and am going to have to make some mid-course adjustments to my plan. Today I weighed in and lost exactly ZERO pounds.  Yup, zero. Nothing. Nada. (I thought I was going to gain — for some reason I’ve gained a couple of pounds at home the last couple of days.).  I’ve worked hard this week and I’ve stuck to my diet.  But something did not work. I plateaued.

So I’m making a couple of mid-course adjustments. I’m changing up my diet.  I’m changing my weekend workout routine.  And I’m refocusing on the remaining five weeks of my training.  I still have 27 pounds to lose to make my goal of 50 lost during the program.

This isn’t the time to get mad. This isn’t a time to panic. It’s the time to adjust and go on the offensive.  Remember when the Saints came out against the Colts after halftime and kicked an onside kick? That won the Super Bowl for them. It changed the momentum of the second half.

I’m very happy with progress I’ve made. I’m down 23 pounds so far in the program and 30 over all. I now have the fitness ability to work even harder in my training and get more out of it.  It’s time to do that.  It’s time to take my goal to the finish line.   It’s harder to push against the wind.

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Friday Free-For-All

Good morning! Another breezy day (running this morning was like running into a brick wall).

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Right now

I like Self-Help books. I’ve read a bunch of them.  And you want to know how many of them have changed my life?

Zero.

Not because they’re bad books. Some of them are full of brilliant advice.  No, they haven’t changed my life because a book CAN’T change my life. Only I can. All the wisdom in the world is useless unless you act on it.

Here’s the Merriam-Webster Dictionary definition of the word “Act”

a : the doing of a thing : deed

Notice the word “doing”?  That means to move — to get busy.

I had an epiphany while running out on the track this morning.  Life is like chess, not checkers.  Every move you make opens you up to new possibilities. I used to think you just made a move and moved on to the next one. No. You make your move and you suddenly are surrounded with lots more moves.

I’ve been frozen in fear the last three years as life changed around me.  It’s very easy to blame others for some of the things that have happened — but let’s be very honest: It’s my fault.  Yup. Every bad thing that has happened to me is 100% my fault.

Why? Well, for the record, I’m not crazy.  I’ll admit that I’m not pleased about some of the things that have happened.  Life sucks and can be unfair sometimes. But instead of sitting around being pissed about it, I should have gotten busy. I should have acted more on what I was presented with. I should have got moving. Life is like chess, not checkers. Every move would have opened up new possibilities.  If I had moved more, I’d have been blessed with more opportunities.

There’s a great scene in Band of Brothers when Easy Company is tasked with taking the town of Foy, Belgium.  They are commanded by a particularly inept officer named Lt. Dyke who freezes during the battle.  His lack of action strands his men in the open, causing them to take heavy casualties.  But then Lieutenant Ronald C. Speirs is ordered to take over  — he gets moving.  He charges into battle, his men follow and soon the battle is won. He chose to move. And his choice made the difference.

I’m not saying charge into stupid situations.  Take calculated risks. But take them. Don’t ponder them to death. Don’t freeze from worry.  Don’t freeze from fear.

I have the talent. You do, too.

Be the servant who makes the most of the talents he was in trusted with. Act on what you’ve been given. You’ll be amazed at how many blessings come your way. (and when they do, act on them, too.)

I’m committed to working harder, to using my talents in new and exciting ways.  This is my time to make hay. I have three sons and a wife who need me to make miracles happen. It’s time for me to act.

Right now.


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Fit-to-Fat-to-Fit Blog: Day 27

Goal Weight: 195 lbs.

Ugh. The heat was on in the gym. I now know how the Wicked Witch felt when Dorothy gave her the bucket bath.  I melted. One of our stations was putting the treadmill at an incline at 15 degrees and the speed at 3.5 mph.  The work didn’t get me but the heat did. Thought I was going to barf. Heck, I still feel like I am going to barf.  It’s a sign I’m not acclimated to the heat yet.  Another thing for my check list: GET USED TO THE HEAT. Summer is coming.  And since Winter has already moved aside for Spring, the heat will be here before we know it.

The past six weeks of working out have taught me a powerful truth: Life is like chess, not checkers.  Both are played on the same board, but checkers involves linear moves.  In chess, every move opens up a new world of possibilities. I used to believe that every move in life just led to another move and then you went from there. But me working out has shown me that life is more like chess. My joining this program and getting back into shape has opened me up to a new world.  I’ve built relationships.  I’m in a place now six weeks into this where I’m now surrounded with new opportunities that will make my family’s life better.  And as a bonus, I have the energy and stamina to pursue those opportunities.  The motto of the Fit4Change program is “Next Level.”  That’s true in more ways than just exercise.  Every  move you make opens you up to a new world of positive opportunities. But you have to keep moving. And that requires being mentally and physically fit.

I’m getting there. One sweaty move at a time.

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Thursday Free-For-All

Good morning! What’s up?

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Ashes to Ashes

The ground was littered with beads, cups and other assorted colorful debris from the night before. The good times had rolled. Now it all had to be cleaned up.

It was Ash Wednesday, the beginning of Lent. The party was officially over.

Bourbon Street had been rocking the night before. The city had made an amazing comeback since the dark days after Katrina.  Last night’s parade was a high point. Tourists toured. Partiers partied.  And now the cleaners cleaned.

A gray cloud cover dulled the surrounding city’s colors at sunrise, making the day as gloomy as the meaning behind it. Ashes to ashes. Dust to dust.

“Well,” the street sweeper thought, “Someone has to clean up the ashes and the dust.”  Janitor humor. It made him laugh every single time.

A moaning man rolled in an alley in the same spot where he had passed out the night before.  The street sweeper had given up alcohol many Lents ago.  And seeing the poor hungover man sleeping in the pool of his own vomit was #4 on the list of  his 100 reasons why not to drink.  The street sweeper had dreams.  Alcohol, drugs and whatever vice he would normally give up  for Lent were all just roadblocks. He knew great things were going to happen in his life. No sense of having any personal demons stepping in the way.

Oh, he had plenty of reasons to drink. Katrina would be a humongous one.  The post-tramatic syndrome he suffered would be another.  Losing his house near Lakeview to a wall of water would also qualify. Then there was being laid-off from his white-collar job — THAT was worth a cold one. His wife and kids leaving him after a nasty divorce would drive most men to a bottle. A lot of bottles. Yup. He had met the Devil, stared him in the eye and pondered the reasons why he should remain living. Ashes to ashes. Dust to dust.

But he had chosen to keep living. Why? He was a man of faith. Faith in the man upstairs. Faith that life doesn’t always deal bad cards.  He swept more beads into another pile (something he had been doing since midnight).  Work gave him purpose. Dreams gave him hope. He dreamed of a better life. Of meeting a soulmate.  He knew that the Lord saw his suffering. God was a loving God. He knew his moment would happen soon.

And then he saw it.  The gold ring gleamed in the filtered sunlight.  He looked around and quickly crossed the street to pick it up.

It was a woman’s ring. Thin, but wide enough to have a single cross on it.  It almost felt warm to the touch. Whoever lost such an elegant piece of jewelry must be sick about it.  He inspected it one more time and slipped it into his pocket.  He’d check with the police (like they cared) to see if anyone had mentioned losing it.  If not, he’d have an expensive souvenir from his night of cleaning up after Mardi Gras.

He pulled out the ring again and looked at the cross on it. Ashes to ashes.  Dust to dust.

A delicate finger tapped him lightly on the shoulder.  “Excuse me sir, I think you have my ring.”

The street sweeper turned to see the most beautiful woman he had ever seen. Tall, dark hair and black eyes. He could tell by the wrinkles around her eyes that she was about his age.  She looked like an angel. She had to be an angel.

“Um, er.” he stammered.

“Inside of it, you’ll see “Ask and ye shall receive,” inscribed inside of it.

Sure enough, the inscription was inside it.

The street cleaner handed the ring over to the woman.

“Thanks. It’s all I have from before Katrina.  I was sick this morning when I saw that it had slipped off my finger.”

The street sweeper, noticing that his shift was about over, said, “Do I get a reward? How about you buy me breakfast.”

The lady, looked at the sweeper and paused.  Who was this man? Why had she been led back here?  He had a gentleness in his eyes.  A kindness to his spirit. She wasn’t sure why, but she trusted the man.  “Sure,” she said.  “There’s a great cafe a couple of blocks down that my family owns. ”

The sweeper whistled to his coworker and handed over his broom. He took off his hat and tucked it under his arm.  “Tell the boss, I’ll see him tomorrow.”

And with that the street sweeper walked down the street with the most beautiful woman he had ever seen in his life. Ashes to ashes. Dust to dust.

It would be forty-six days until Easter, but he had risen from the dead. At that moment he put all the pain of the past six years behind him and walked boldly into a new future.

He and the lady continued to date. Eventually he quit his street sweeper job and began working in the restaurant. In an year, he began managing a second location.  He and the lady were married in the Cathedral.  And when it came time to exchange rings, she gave him the most precious ring of all: The one he had found.  “Wear this ring on your pinkie finger and always know this — When you found this ring, you found my heart.”

He smiled, kissed his new bride and lived in happiness until the very end of his life. Ashes to ashes. Dust to dust.

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Fit-to-Fat-to-Fit Blog: Day 26

Goal Weight: 195 lbs.

Today’s weight: 216 lbs.

Remember that thou art dust, and to dust thou shalt return. Genesis 3:19

It’s Ash Wednesday. I guess I’m supposed to ponder my mortality today, but honestly, I face it every time I put my shirt on. On my back is a six (or seven)-inch scar where a malignant melanoma was carved out by Dr. Kenneth Barraza.  Melanoma is an extremely dangerous form of skin cancer that spreads like fertilized Kudzu.  I was fortunate mine was caught early.  And I’ve been given 11 years of life as a reward.  To allow myself to get as out of shape as I did was spitting in the face of that gift. I have not made the most of it. I have not always lived in the moment.  The greatest sin I have committed was not appreciating the joy of a life that is borrowed.  Exercise is an important part of me saying thank you.  It’s an important part of me taking care of the body that once tried to kill me.

I’m so glad I’m back on the right track.

Like so many of you, I’m living in very stressful times. My career is changing rapidly — I don’t know where it is going right now, to be honest.  I’m watching loved ones struggle with a horrible disease. I’m working long hours.  But I am so thankful that I’m alive. That I have the chance to face these challenges. I am thankful I get to kiss my kids goodnight.

Being alive is one thing. Living is another. Thanks to the last six weeks of exercise, I’m beginning to live again.

Ashes to ashesdust to dust.

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Wednesday Free-For-All

Good morning! Hope you have a good day!

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