The Honey Badger

The red clouds reflected off the steel gray water of the reservoir’s calm water.  A slight breeze from the north caused small, rippled waves that bothered no one but a handful of mallards who were resting their wings.  The breeze signaled the impending sunrise —  A fresh start for the day.  It was a clean slate for the humans who were beginning to stir. The morning called out like a child playing Hide ‘n’ Seek: “Ready or not, here I come.”

The husband opened one eye and then the other.  The clock was three minutes from when the alarm was supposed to go off. With a slight grumble, he shut it off and thought about how cold the floor would be.  His brain tried to con him into staying in bed, “Just a few more minutes.”  Who was he to argue?  But he had work to do.  He had a vow to live up to.

Across the room, there was a hospital bed.  In it was the beautiful woman he had once made a powerful vow to.  “For better or worse, ” he remembered the priest’s words with a smile. They were just kids back then. And those were just words..  The better part was easy. Kids. Trips. Jobs. Love making. Smiles. Hugs. The little things.  “Worse” was killing him inside.  Three words had rocked their worlds: “You have cancer.” Three more words nearly destroyed them: “It is back.” His wife had been diagnosed with breast cancer four years ago.  Six months ago, it had returned.

The man always got up at sunrise. He’d never take one for granted again.

He walked quietly over to his wife and gently stroked her bald head.  The medicine that was supposed to cure her was nearly killing her.  But she didn’t complain. No, cancer had met a powerful foe.  A quiet warrior who battled with the strength of an army.  The kids would forever know that their mother was a fighter.  He rubbed the back of his hand against her sleeping face, “I’m so glad they have your genes.”

The red glow of the sunrise leaked through the room’s curtains.   It represented hope burning away the darkness.  He thought of their wedding again. While the “For Better” part of their vow had been the most enjoyable, “The Worse” had made them truly one.  They were a team. And they were fighting this beast together.

He went across the house and gently woke the kids. They had a daughter and a son — old enough to understand what was going on but too young to be told the odds.  Both kids had aged 20 years in the past four. Cancer had that effect on a family. The tears. The fear. The strain.  Cancer’s attack on their mom had stolen their childhoods.  “Time for school.” The kids poured sleepily out of their beds and headed to the kitchen.

“What did the doctor say about mom?” the son asked quietly.

Honesty within reason with the kids was rule #1 during this battle. “The doctor was impressed with your mom’s scans.  They are serious, but the new drug is making progress.  The trial is just beginning and there is hope.”

Hope. There was that word again. Like fire needs fuel and oxygen to burn, their family needed hope.  And like the sunrise lighting their home, they were finally getting some.

“Your mom is an amazing woman. If anyone can beat this, it is her.  Why? She has so much to live for.  She is living for you.” The dad pointed at the two kids.

The kids finished up breakfast, got ready and quickly headed out to catch the bus.  The dad drank his coffee from the front porch and waved (to their embarrassment he was sure) at them as they drove off for the day.

“Good,” he thought. “Now I can get to work.”

He went in and got his card ready. He then put the roses in vases and tied the balloons to her bed.  He then went in the closet and got the box out. He opened it carefully and pulled the stuffed animal out. Carefully, he lifted her arm and put the animal under it.  He leaned over and whispered three more words into her ear.

“Happy Valentine’s Day.”

Her right eye opened slowly and then both opened wide when she saw the 20 roses (one for every year they had been married.)  She then felt the stuffed animal and picked it up and looked at it with curiosity.

“What’s this?” she asked with a weak voice.

He smiled and said, “It’s a toy Honey Badger.  The Honey Badger is the most fearless and toughest animal on the planet. It can even survive being bit by a cobra.”

She thought of the YouTube video they had watched so many times and  said, “Honey Badger don’t care.” she said, sounding like its narrator Randall.  They laughed.

“The Honey Badger has got nothin’ on you, hon. Happy Valentine’s Day.”  He kissed her on her bald head and wiped a tear from his face.

Like the cobra, cancer had met its match. The new experimental drug would work on her, sending her back into remission. They would share many more sunrises and Valentine’s Days together.  And on that Valentine’s Day, a husband would learn that sometimes, “For Better” comes from “Worse.” And that his wife was way tougher than the Honey Badger.

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Fit-to-Fat-to-Fit Blog: Monday Run

Goal weight: 195 lbs.

Today’s weight: 221 lbs.

After fighting off whatever crud my son had been trying to give me all weekend, I took my lungs out for a  very cold run this morning.  I drug them up and down the hills of my neighborhood.  Surprisingly, they kept up.  (I’m proud of my lungs and my immune system.)  While I’d say that I’m not out of the woods yet, so far I’ve beat back the cooties my son had.

So how was the run? Well, the sky was dark and covered the earth with a gray blanket of clouds.  Streetlights lit my path, leaving vast dark areas where I had to watch out for holes in the pavement.  No sense of twisting an ankle.  I practiced being mindful and in the moment. I mentally jotted down all the things I saw, heard and smelled.  I attacked hills with confidence and energy. My mind was as engaged as my legs.  While cold at first, my body worked up a sweat by the very end of the run.  It was a great way to start the day.

My Garmin GPS watch said I did 3.59 miles.  My lungs seconded my watch. Who am I to argue?

It all comes down to this: Today I’m wearing a shirt and a sweater that I bought last December (and haven’t been able to wear since last March.)  That is progress I can believe in.

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Monday Free-For-All

Good morning! Have a great week.

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Fit-to-Fat-to-Fat Blog: Cold & Flu season

Goal Weight: 195 lbs.

My son is trying to give an early Valentine’s Day gift:  His flu.

My nose is congested. My lungs are tight. I have a headache. I’m achy.  I don’t have time to get sick. I’m eating so much citrus right now that I feel like I’m making orange juice when I sweat. I’m taking my vitamins and am trying to rest as much as I can.  I’ve got to avoid the brunt of this.

This will make tomorrow’s run interesting.  And hopefully by the time I get back at the morning workouts on Tuesday, this will have passed.  Otherwise, it will be miserable.

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Sunday Free-For-All

Good morning! Hope you stay warm today!

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The Performer

The young performer sat on the stage, dejected after a terrible performance. It had been a horrible night. The rows of chairs in front of him were now empty. So was his heart. Dejected, he thought briefly about quitting. About giving up. Instead, he sat in the nearly dark hall mulling over his future. He closed his eyes and began reviewing his dream.

His dream. The very thing that had driven him for years. The very thing that had taken him from being a middle-class boy in a middle-class suburb to this very stage.  He had made it. His talent had brought him this far. And then he had failed.  His eyes hurt. So did his soul.

He plunged into darkness.

“When you are driving in your car and a dog chases you, do you stop and pull over? Or do you keep going and leave the dog behind?”

The performer looked around and didn’t see anyone.

“Ever read the anonymous comments about you on the internet?  Remember the boos you heard tonight?  They’re like that dog.  The dog can only hurt you if you let it catch you.”

The performer strained his eyes, trying to see the source of the voice.

“I let the dog catch me.  Don’t you allow it to happen to you.”

An elderly man pushing a broom and a barrel came into view.

“I had talent just like you. I once performed on this stage. But then I quit. I allowed my critics to get me down.  I chose the wrong people to listen to.  Now don’t get me wrong, I’ve lived a good life. But I didn’t live the great life that was I was capable of living.”

The custodian walked over to the performer and sat down next to him. He then put his arm around the boy.  The performer was surprised but just sat there, listening to the wise old man.

“You had a bad night. And you’ll get a bad review. You’ll probably have people shelling you on the Internet within the hour. Heck, probably at this very moment. Keep driving son. Don’t let the dog catch you.”

The performer looked at the custodian’s eyes and could see his reflection within them. He then looked out into the dark theater.  He had to keep driving — his journey had taken him this far. It was time see where it would take him.

“Now if you will excuse me, I have a theater to clean up.  And you have an act to improve.”

The custodian stood up slowly, balancing himself on his broom.  He walked into the darkness and disappeared.

“Thank you.”

“No son, don’t thank me with your words.  Come back tomorrow night and give the performance of your life.  That’s how you can thank me.”

The performer nodded.

The next night, he did indeed give the best performance of his life.  And when he came out for his third encore, he invited a special guest onto the stage.  An elderly man in a gray uniform, walked slowly into the spotlight and joined the performer in a duet of  Frank Sinatra’s “My Way”.

The audience gave both men a standing ovation. And then the performer realized he had just left the dog far behind.

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Fit-to-Fat-to-Fit Blog: A cold run

Goal Weight: 195 lbs.

My oldest son and I went running along the Natchez Trace Parkway and the Ross Barnett Reservoir.  Our goal was four miles.  The sky was a beautiful blue and the sun was brilliant — but it was 37 degrees and the wind was gusting up to 30 mph.  It was chilly.  Very chilly.

My son had a great run. And so did I. We stuck together and he plowed up the hills like they weren’t even there. I was very proud of him.  Heck, I was proud of us.

We ended up running 4.57 miles and had a great time.  A month ago, I couldn’t have run 100 yards.  Change isn’t easy. But it’s possible.  I’m living proof.

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Saturday Free-For-All

Good morning! What’s up? (besides the wind)

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Fit-to-Fat-to-Fit Blog: Day 20

Goal Weight: 195 lbs.

Today’s Fit-to-Fat-to-Fit Blog is sponsored by Ibuprofen. Ibuprofen, for when your 44-year-old body feels like a 95-year-old’s.

I had a dream that my covers were a Venus Flytrap, trapping me and preventing me from escaping. That the sheets weighed more than a sack of anvils. And then I woke up.  It was 3:39 a.m. and time to get out of bed.

#$%#$.

I didn’t WANT to get up. I ran a mile with my son last night.  Yesterday was a stressful day. I had a speech thrown into it.  I was as mentally tired as I was physically tired. Today looks to be equally as stressful.

I got out of bed anyway.

As Woody Allen once said, “Eighty percent of success is showing up.”

It was time for me to go and  give the other 20%.

Like I’ve said before, this is about more than just “getting in shape.” This is also training me mentally so I can push through fatigue. Today was a prime mental training day.  I was mentally and physically wiped out. But I kept pushing.

Why? The goal is more important than the temporary pain.

Other than a couple of bad moments on the treadmill, I had a good session.  In fact, it became a great session once I stepped on the scale during our weekly weigh-in: I’ve lost five pounds this week. I’m down 24 since I started the program.

As I walked out of the gym and saw the first hints of dawn, I felt glad I got out of bed. Five weeks down, seven to go. And I’m already seeing life-changing results.

Go Line 2!

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Friday Free-For-All

Good morning!  Hope you have a fantastic day!

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