SHORT STORY: Melting Ice

ICEThe smell of bacon wafted through the kitchen. Thankfully, Varner Lee’s trailer still had electricity. Most of the Delta was now in the dark thanks a healthy coat of ice on the power lines and trees. There really wasn’t much good to say about an ice storm. Varner hated them. He  held his cup of coffee close to his nose allowing its steam to tickle his nostrils. If he could have injected it directly into his veins, he would have. But the smell of fresh brewed coffee and freshly fried bacon created a olfactory symphony that was hard to beat.

Varner was 45 years old, recently divorced and living with a fine obese cat named Bells Ferry. Asked about the cat’s odd name, Varner laughed and said it was the name of his elementary school. Bells Ferry didn’t seem to mind his name– a good cat didn’t come when called anyway.  Varner looked out the window toward the Delta. He lived on the bluff that ran from Vicksburg and it afforded him an amazing view. He had a $10 trailer, but a $1,000,000 view.  Ice glazed all the trees, making the world look like a giant donut.

Donut. Now Varner was really hungry.  He scrambled an egg and dropped a piece of bacon on the floor for Bells Ferry. “Enjoy that old boy. It may be the last cooked food we have in a while.”

Ice coated perilously coated the power lines. “Won’t be long,” he thought. He remembered the ice storm of 1994 that crippled North Mississippi. And the one he had experienced as a child in the Atlanta area, too.  One of his fleeting memories of childhood was of his poor dad sliding down the street in the family wagon on a skating rink of five inches of ice.

Being a grownup sucked.

The kids in the Delta schools and academies were out.  Education was pretty much segregated in the Delta.  But right now, white and black both had the day off. Just not Varner. Like his father, he would have to slide into work soon, too.

Varner shrugged his shoulders. You couldn’t even go out and make an ice man or an ice angel in this crap. And throwing ice balls would definitely hurt.

The trailer’s lights flickered for a moment and came back on. Varner let out a sigh at the close call.  “I hope you can stay warm,” he said to his cat. Bells Ferry was 20 pounds. The portly cat had enough blubber to survive the next ice age.

The problem with Bells Ferry was that although he was an excellent listener, he really didn’t talk much. The trailer was deathly quiet.  In fact, the only noise Varner could hear was the cracking of oak and pine trees in the distance.

“This #$%# is getting serious.” Varner cursed.  He knew his mama would not have approved of his sailor talk, but there really was no other way to put it. He had watched his beloved Delta suffer so many different ways.  Mother Nature usually found  the most cruel and unusual ways to hurt you.

Last year it was the flood. This year the heat and now the ice.  Varner started humming James Taylor’s Fire and Rain. “Just yesterday morning, the let me know you were gone. Suzanne the plans they made put an end to you. I’ve seen fire and I’ve seen rain…”

His Suzanne was now in Atlanta with the kids.  They had argued about so many different things that they couldn’t even agree where halfway was. He said Tuscaloosa. She said outside of Birmingham.  Of course, the divorce lawyers fed off of their hatred like mosquitoes in a blood bank.  Varner missed his boys.  Sitting in the empty trailer was his purgatory.  He’d pay for his sins the rest of his life.  Not hearing his children’s laughter was the biggest price of all.

His heart was as frozen as the surrounding Delta.

“Well, fat cat, I need to run.  Stay warm today and try not to eat all your food at once.” Bells Ferry swished his tail in disgust.

There was at least half an inch of ice on his truck’s windshield.  He managed to break it off and eased his old Chevy into four-wheel drive.  Four-wheel drive was more for snow than ice.  But it beat trying to get around on the back wheels.  His truck crunched down the drive as Varner hummed “Walking in a winter wonderland.” He really didn’t know why the plant was open today, but a job was a job. And he would be there on time.

As he got to the main road and tried to turn right, a Pontiac G6 slid sideways past him.  Before Varner could brink, the car left the road and slammed broadside into a pine.  The sickening crash was rapidly followed by near silence.  Varner ran over to the crash site and heard the radiator hissing menacingly. Then he smelled it. The gas tank had been ruptured.  Inside, surrounded by fired airbags was a lady. Her head was bleeding profusely but she seemed to be conscious.  Then Varner saw something in back seat that made his blood colder than the ice on the road: An infant car seat.

“Just hold on ma’am.” Varner yanked unsuccessfully on the door.  He paused and looked around for a rock.  “Hold on!”  The glass shattered, allowing Varner to unlock the door.

The baby was unhurt.  “Thank the Lord!”  Unbuckled her and slung him over his shoulder. He then helped free the mom from her seatbelt. “C’mon ma’am. You need to move.”  Seconds seemed like hours but Varner knew he didn’t have time to spare.  The three carefully navigated the icy road toward his trailer.

“911? I need an ambulance. I know it is icy.  We’ve had a bad wreck on the main highway.”

He looked down at the woman’s beautiful (if not battered face.) The ice surrounding him began to melt.

 

That day changed Varner’s life. If you asked him before the wreck if ice storms were bad, Varner would have said yes.  And he would have given you some pretty good reasons why. But after the wreck, he would tell you it was the day Marie and Jenny slid into his life.  Without a little ice, his new wife and adopted daughter would have zoomed on past his heart.  

The cat Bells Ferry was happy about it, too.  He knew that more people meant more bacon.  And yes, even an ice storm goes better with bacon. 

 

 

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Lance’s confession

Say it isn't so, Lance. Say it isn't so.

Say it isn’t so, Lance. Say it isn’t so.

I was up at 3:15 this morning, fumbling around and trying to get ready to workout without waking the world. I needed to shave, so I opened my bathroom cabinet drawer to look for my razor.  I groped around for the blade (with its cap on so I wouldn’t slice off a finger.).  I found a toothbrush. A tube of lip balm, a penny, a tube of muscle rub and some floss.  And then I felt something I haven’t worn in a long time. It’s rubber and a bracelet.  The low light revealed that it was yellow. And on it was the word LIVESTRONG.

I suppose it should say LIESTRONG since Lance Armstrong has apparently confessed to doping to Oprah. (Forgive me Oprah, for I have sinned.)

I stood there in the near dark clutching something that used to mean so much to me. It had been given to me by a member of the Livestrong organization three years after I had survived cancer.  It stood for victory: Victory over a disease that could have very easily killed me. Victory over fear. Victory because I now had hope of survival.

Of course, the person who inspired that hope was Armstrong. His story was a story of legend. Not only did he have a foot in the grave with testicular cancer, he was up to his neck in the grave. And we all know the rest of the story: He went on to win one of the toughest athletic challenges in the world — the Tour de France — seven times.

He became a legend in the sports world. And to us cancer survivors, well, he stood for something even bigger.

He didn’t just survive cancer. He thrived.

We all know now that it was based on a lie. He doped. He intimidated people who tried to blow the whistle on him. He acted generally like an ass.  Not only did he cheat death, he cheated life. It’s hell when you find out your heroes have feet of clay.

I’ve met Armstrong once.  He was brusk and in a hurry.  Not a lovable, gregarious sort of person by any means. But I thanked him for the hope he gave me.  I meant it. And I’d say the same thing today.

Because even though his legend he created was based on a lie, that hope I felt was very real. And it is still with me.

I put the bracelet back in the drawer and rubbed the scar on my side.  And then I thought about Lance’s interview with Oprah (which I will watch). I hope the Livestrong Foundation survives Lance’s lying. Their mission is bigger than one person’s idiocy and ethical shortcomings.

As for Lance, he made his bed. He’ll now have to sleep in it. But as a cancer survivor, I am appreciative of the message, even though the messenger turned out to be so tragically flawed.

I’ll continue to live strong.  I’ll just find my inspiration somewhere else.

 

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Fit-to-Fat-to-Fit Blog: Day 4

“I’ve just run a whole hour. I’ve never done that before in my life and I’m nearly sixty.” The lady standing next to me was crying as she said that.  I don’t know her name, but I could feel her pride in her accomplishment. Her body had just done something her mind said she couldn’t do.  She had every right to feel proud. And I felt proud for her as I hobbled toward the showers.

I felt like crying too. But it was just because of the pain.

Today was an upper body workout day.  And I’ll have to admit, typing is a challenge right now — my arms are limp spaghetti noodles. Line 2 (my group) started with full court runs broken into three parts. Part one was a sprint and then 10 pushups. Part 2 was a shuffle and then 10 more pushups and then a sprint with, you guessed it, 10 MORE pushups.  Then rinse and repeat.

We then went to the treadmills and ran 6 mph.  I did the elliptical and did 8 mph because of my knee. It has inflammation on the left kneecap and is quite painful.

After that, we did stations on the weight equipment.  All upper body, of course.  My arms began wearing out.  My upper body strength (I haven’t trained much for it lately) is nil.

The last station was the killer: Bear crawls, moving pushups, inchworms. And once again, rinse and repeat.  My arms started to lock up and burn in pain.

I’m lucky I didn’t face plant.

Jury’s out on my knee. I’ll continue to ice it and eat ibuprofen like Tic-tacs. If I wasn’t doing the program, I’d probably lay off it for two weeks. But Scalestrangely enough, the stretching we do really helps.  I’ll play it by ear (or play it by knee, I guess.)  And continue to play through the pain.

But honestly, my  biggest accomplishment was that I got out of bed this morning. That I drove in and worked out.  I pushed myself out of my comfort zone and bathed my brain with healthy endorphins.  Yes, I’m tired.  But I do have a sense of accomplishment.

I’m in a better place than I was last year when I first did Fit4Change.  But I have so much more work to do before I get to the next level.

I just hope my knee holds out.  Walmart doesn’t sell those.  And Lord knows I can’t afford another one right now.

Goal weight: 185 lbs.

Today’s Weight 205 lbs.

 

 

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Tuesday Free-For-All

Good rainy/icy/nasty/damp/foggy/soggy/squishy day to you!  Hope you have a great day. Only four months until your taxes are due!

The King Edward and the Standard Life Building at 4:30 a.m.

The King Edward and the Standard Life Building at 4:30 a.m.

 

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Dog Years

Pip2A hard, cold rain fell steadily on the dreary January evening. Lying at the foot of the bed, a small brown dog looked at her two humans with a degree of disgust.  Both were mad (again). And both weren’t paying any attention each other (and her.)  Their bad moods filled the room like a noxious cloud.

She thought about biting one of them but knew she hadn’t had her rabies shot. There was no need to risk an Ol’ Yeller ending. So she laid at the end of the bed staring at her humans and their grumpy faces.

She sighed and put her head down.

Talking heads on the 24-hour cable news show argued about something trivial. A squall of rain began hitting the double French-doors in the bedroom, making the tension in the room even thicker.  A real storm was blowing in Washington. And here.

“People are so complex,” the dog thought.Don’t people realize that life is a gift?  It’s a blessing?  She knew she’d never trust the angry guys on TV. Anyone who wants you to be afraid should not be trusted, the dog decided. They’re selling something.

The dog suddenly bit at her tail. A flea had chomping down on her butt, seeking dinner. “Seems appropriate,” the dog thought.

She looked back up at the bed. Both humans were still quiet. They wasted more life being mad. Say what you want about dogs, they got “it.” Come home from work, the dog acts like you’ve just liberated Paris. Leave for work and the dog is devastated.  If people only treated each other like that, the world would be a much nicer place.

And didn’t they understand how short life really was? You spend an eternity as worm food and you use the few fleeting moments of life being pissed off?  The dog wasn’t expert on time, but she did understand the concept of “Dog Years.”  In her mind, life was about two things, “Rest and play.”  You rest when you can. And you make everything else fun.

Well, except trips to the vet. The dog scoffed. If the humans had to have a fecal sample, they would not be so eager to take their four-legged fur babies in for such medieval torture.

The dog scratched behind her ear.  “#$%# bloodsuckers,” she cursed.  She almost made a joke about Congress, but decided against it. Too easy.  She looked back at her humans.  Somehow she would have to rescue them from themselves. She had to truly be man’s best friend.

She stood up, stretched, yawned a Snoopy yawn and walked up between her humans.  She began wagging her tail as hard as she possibly could.  Never had a being radiated so much joy.

The male human put his e-reader down and began to scratch her belly. The female human smiled as she started rubbing the little brown dog’s ears.

Thunder rumbled off in the distance and little brown dog curled up next to her humans. There was too much anger in the world. And she was going to stamp it out, one human at a time.

That’s how she chose to spend her dog years.

 

 

 

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Monday Free-For-All

Good morning! A nice, gray, nasty, cold Monday out there today. Hope you had a great weekend!

Did you watch the Golden Globes? What did you think?

 

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Sunday Free-For-All

Good afternoon! Took the day off today to recover. Busy week ahead.

Along a trail in the Great Smoky Mountains.

Along a trail in the Great Smoky Mountains.

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Fit-to-Fat-to-Fit Blog: Saturday #1

photo copy 5Here’s the deal with Fit4Change. You bust your, um, butt, Tuesday through Friday. Paul Lacoste wants you to exercise on Saturday and Monday on your own. On Sunday, you rest and take your family to church.

Saturday’s are normally my long run day anyway.  I usually get up super early and pound out 10 to 15 miles on the Ridgeland Multipurpose trail.  This morning, I slept a little later than normal. I got up at seven (that’s sleeping late for me) and went in to my son’s room and nudged him. “You wanna run?”

He grumbled a bit.  I think he said “yes.” I really don’t know for sure.  Preteens have a language of their own.

Last week, I ran a half marathon in the freezing cold. This morning, I ran in a Spring-like soup of humidity. C’mon Mother Nature. It’s too dang hot for this time of year — quit screwing with our heads. I pushed the humidity out of way and we started running.

We ran out of our neighborhood and along a trail that led us to the Natchez Trace. At mile two, he started to run out of gas, so we walked/run for a little bit.  I was OK with it because my left knee was killing me. Tight muscles and inflammation caused it to scream, “You #$#$%” at me the whole time we ran.  After 3.5 miles, we ran back by the house where my son went in. I stretched my quadriceps and continued to run. That eased the pain some.  I came back after five miles and then rode my spin bike for 20 more minutes.

My knee feels much better after doing that.

So, I will now add some bike-work into the mix.

OK, here’s where I take a different turn. You might think this is a blog touting the importance of exercise.  If you do, I won’t argue. But the most important thing I did this morning was spend time with my son.  We have now planned two races we are going to run together.

My whole quest for fitness is really about time. And exercise gives it to me.  It’s the change I seek in Fit4Change.

 

 

 

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Saturday Free-For-All

Good morning! It’s warm and humid out there. And I bet it will rain.

 

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The little book that could

Book UprightWhile I miss Banjo frequently, I know the little dog’s spirit is still with me. Never had I met a tougher animal than him; he just wanted to live.  Banjo the dog was 10% teeth, 20% brains and 70% heart.  And that heart drove a will stronger than any person I know.

So it only makes sense that a book dedicated to him would have an equally strong will.  Last week I was on the Dave Ramsey show talking about it.  His website offered the book at rock-bottom price for 48 hours to coincide with my appearance on the show.  “Bring 200 books. We’ll probably sell 100 and keep 100 on reserve,” they said.

Within ten minutes,they had sold 150. The plug ended up being pulled early on the special because amazing sales had wiped out my remaining inventory of books.

Needless to say, I’m ordering more books.

On Christmas morning, I received dozens of tweets from people unwrapping their book.  I had photos of it sitting next to fried chicken and a glass of wine. Yesterday, I received a long note from a lady explaining how it had changed her life.

It’s the little book that could.

And it is just like the little brown dog it honors.

If you’d like a copy, you can order one from Lemuriabooks.com.  Soon, I will be getting it on Amazon.  We’re working on national distribution (although Lemuria can ship anywhere in the world). An e-version is on the horizon and I might even do an audio book.

Banjo would be proud of “his” book.

I know I am .

 

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