CARTOON: The tragedy

I met Stuart M. Irby a couple of times. Once before the accident and once after. I didn’t know him well but I am saddened about his suicide.  Suicide is one of those acts that is tougher on the survivors. Friends and family are wondering what could have been done differently.  I pray for them.  And I pray for the families of the two young, promising doctors who died in the fiery crash caused by Stuart and Karen Irby.  The Pogue and Dedousis families  deserve peace, too. And they will get my prayers.  The whole story is a tragedy of a Shakespearean level.  It’s a story about the consequences of your actions. And it’s a story without a happy ending.

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Fit-to-Fat-to-Fit Blog Day 7

Goal Weight: 195

Weight this morning: 230.4

When you fall off a treadmill, you get back on.

I could make a list of excuses why I flew off the back of the treadmill, but I won’t.  I just sucked.  I let my team down. I let myself down.  I didn’t push hard enough.  No excuses.

So when today’s workout was over, I went back to the treadmill and I ran on it for another five minutes at 6 mph.

If I’m going to get better, I have to give more than what is expected. I have to find it inside myself to NOT fall off the damn treadmill.

Paul said we are like blocks of ice melting in the Mississippi sun.  For me, it’s more like I’m a block of marble. Every day I’m chipping away at myself Physically, Mentally and Spiritually.  I have 12 weeks to reveal what’s inside of me.  I have a lot of work to do.

That treadmill is quickly becoming a metaphor for my life and my career right now. I’ve got to push harder than I’ve been pushing.  I need to get back on my life’s treadmill. And get to the next level.

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Thursday Free-For-All

It’s 3:52. About to leave to go workout.

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CARTOON: Costa Concordia Captain

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Free Peanuts

“You’re the most stubborn kid on planet Earth.”

The little blonde-haired boy named Johnny glared at his mother. In between them was a steaming, hot bowl of spinach. Johnny was having nothing to do with it.  His mother was determined that he would.

The mother never won.

Stubbornness was a skill that got Johnny sent to timeout, put in detention, sent to the field to run laps and suspended time and time again in school.  But he had a backbone. He stood up for what he believed in.  How many bar fights had he gotten himself into in College?  He looked at his crooked nose in the mirror.

He believed in right over wrong. Honoring your word. That a handshake meant something.  And that you didn’t change the rules just because you could.  They were old-fashioned beliefs, particularly since the Great Recession had taken business and turned it on its head.  The phrase “It’s just business,” made him cringe.

He was an relic of Old America. The America that the Greatest Generation built.  The America that became a Super Power. He’d never make it to the executive suite. But that’s OK. He believed in his word. And hard work.  And when his head hit the pillow at night, he slept well.

He pushed the peanut shells around on the bar.

“What are you doin’ in here so early, John?” the bartender asked as he dried a glass.

“Laid off.  All my years of hard work meant nothing.”

“Bull.” The bartender said quietly. “You’ve raised your children to have morals. To have values.”

“Well, what good did it do me?”

The bartender set down the glass and looked the man in the eye. “Those values mean you aren’t a quitter.  The people who are taking shortcuts to make a quick buck, well — karma will catch up with them.  When times get rough, they’ll have nothing to fall back on.  You? You have a great family. You stand for something. You’ve saved and will get by.  And look at this community. You’ve made a huge difference in it.  Hold your head up high.  You deserve to.”

And somewhere in John’s body, he felt his spine stiffen. He felt the stubbornness he was so famous for kick in.  “Pity party’s over. Time to get busy.”

The bartender looked at him and smiled, “Darn. And I brought the drinks.  Oh, and remember what Churchill once said, “If you’re going through Hell, don’t stop.”

John picked up his paperwork and jacket.  “You know, you’re better than a psychiatrist.”

The bartender laughed, “I know. And I serve free peanuts.”

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Fit-to-Fat-to-Fit Blog Day 6

Goal Weight 195

Today’s Weight 230.2

“The mind is weaker than the body.”

I can’t tell you which coach told me that this morning. I don’t wear my glasses when I exercise and frankly, all the coaches are blurs. But his words hit home.  Your body is pushing to do the work. Your weak mind is telling you to quit.

Quit.

Quit is one of the most offensive words in the English language. I’d rather someone drop an F-bomb on me than to say, “I quit.”  (unless it is something like quitting cigarettes. I’ll give you a pass on that one).

And yes, quit crosses my mind occasionally.  At 3:50 a.m., I wanted to quit. I got out of bed.  I had a coach once who wanted me to quit. I didn’t.  I cramped up on a bridge crossing the Potomac River in Washington D.C. at mile 20. My legs wanted me to quit. But I didn’t. I ended up being a custodian when I wanted to be a cartoonist. But I didn’t quit.  I got moving. This morning while working out, I was tired and exhausted.  But I didn’t quit.

One secret I’ve found over the years to keep you from quitting: The support of friends.

A support group is amazing. I work out with a group of women who are full of courage.  There will get a time when I will be in better shape than they are. But I’ll never have their will.  When I trained for the marathon, I ran up against a wall until I started training with two friends. The support of friends matters.

Just don’t quit.

I think Winston Churchill said it best, “If you’re going through hell, keep going.”

Don’t quit.

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Wednesday Free-For-All

Good morning! What’s up.

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The Finger of God

He squinted as he looked off to the Southwest.  The severe thunderstorm was on radar and was moving his way. That he knew. He  just couldn’t see what he was looking for — a  damned line of pines and oaks obscured his view. He knew it was out there, though. He felt it coming. A tornado was heading his way.  He put his truck in drive and moved to where he could see the horizon.

Your floor is as flat as the Mississippi Delta.  Tornadoes (which you can see for miles in the Delta) have raked across this prime agricultural land for centuries. But now, there were people in their way.  So his job was to spot the tornadoes before they got to the towns. To warn the people. To see if the confirmed hook echoes on the National Weather Service radar were indeed a tornado on the ground. It was thrilling work.  And it could be incredibly tragic.

He remembered driving into Smithville, MS moments after the EF-5 wiped the city off the map.  He tracked the Yazoo City tornado as it tore up trailers and homes and left a scar across the state of Mississippi.  He saw the bodies in the trees. He could still see them when he closed his eyes. He could still smell the broken pines and the natural gas.

For man to think he could tame nature was ludicrous. There was no place that had more scars to prove it than Mississippi.  Drive along the Mississippi Gulf Coast and you could see what a hurricane could do.  See the south Delta during backwater flooding.  And of course, there was the occasional tornado.

The sky was as green as a poopie diaper.  He laughed — only someone with kids would understand that joke. Lightning was flickering on the horizon like a strobe light — experience had taught him that usually meant “tornado”. He looked on his tablet at the radar. Yup, that was the severe cell.  He parked his truck on the side of the road and got his radio and his camera out.  “I have a funnel on the ground about to cross Highway 61,” he called into his radio.  “Looks like a wedge tornado, possibly as large as an EF-3.”  A wedge tornado was one that was incredible wide at the base. It didn’t dance around like the rope tornadoes he frequently saw in the Delta.  “This one will be bad,” he thought to himself.  He filmed a few minutes of it as it headed to the northeast.  “Better move,” he thought. “Don’t want to end up in OZ.”

His obsession with tornadoes had begun when he was a small child living in Philadelphia, Mississippi.  A tornado had torn through the town, killing several people he knew.  In fact, his own house had been leveled.  I remembered his family huddled, crying in the ditch nearby.  He’d never forget the rumbling whine of the tornado. Or the crashing sound as his world disappeared into the wind.  For years he had thought it to be a cruel joke his high school’s nickname was the Tornadoes. After he had graduated, he had gone to Mississippi State to pursue his meteorology degree.  Weather had shaped him like heat and pressure makes diamonds. A tornado blown through his life and he’d spend the rest of his life chasing it.

He had been sleeping in his house in Madison, Mississippi when the sirens went off one Saturday morning. The Fairfield tornado (as it was called) slammed through his subdivision with all its EF-4 power.  One lady died in that storm. He lost his roof.  His family was safe in the safe room (a must). But he stood there on the front porch and watched as the houses around him started to break apart.  He almost didn’t make it to shelter in time. But he refused to be frightened. Like a victim’s family at Parchman on execution day, he was going to stare the killer in the face.

“Tell Indianola to get ready. This one will be on the ground by the time it gets there.”  The structure of the storm had strengthened. He could see farm equipment getting tossed around like Tonka Toys during a toddler’s fit.

Some people went to church to be closer to God. He chased tornadoes.  There was something almost Old Testament about them.  They were God’s power on Earth.  The tornado took a bead on a  small, white church. Suddenly white board soared high into the funnel.  “Ouch.”

“We had a small community, I think Tribbett, that was hit. Better send ambulances,” he reported to the Sheriff.  He close his eyes and thought of hanging on to his mother than fateful day in Philadelphia. He heard the whine. The rumbling. The freight train. He felt her as she lifted off the ground.  He opened his eyes again and watched the tornado lumber toward Indianola.

He said a quick prayer for his friends in Indianola.  And right as he said Amen and opened his eyes, the tornado decayed into a rope tornado. And then it disappeared into the sky.

“Thanks.” he looked at the sky.  He got back into his truck and headed toward Indianola for lunch. Another chase had come to a close. It was yet another day chasing his demons. It was another day of pursuing the Finger of God.

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From Fit to Fat to Fit: Day 5

Goal Weight: 195

Current Weight: 231.4

I had a training partner this morning: A freakin’ cold.  Yup, I started coming down with it yesterday on the air.  My head felt like a giant lead weight. But thankfully I got a decent night’s sleep (thank you Amy). I woke up at 3:50 a.m. with a stopped up head a slight sense of dread.

The good news is that after a week of getting worked over, my body is starting to respond. Most of my team did the treadmill (where I failed last week) and the elliptical this morning. Paul kept me on the treadmill the whole time. And pushed me at six miles per hour.  Last week I would have died.  This week, I pushed through it.  Yes, I went off the back of the treadmill once (I’m clumsy, OK) — but I proved to myself that I could do it.  And I did.  The set of lungs and heart that once ran for five hours straight through Washington, D.C. started to wake up out of their inactive slumber.

Am I fit yet? Heck no.  Did I get a taste of where I will be in 12 weeks? Yes. And that right there is the most powerful motivation of all. I WANT to BE BACK.

And no cold or excess body fat will stop me.

P.S. We ran wind sprints this morning.  I had flashbacks to the practice field at Sprayberry High School.

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Tuesday Free-For-All

Good morning! Have a great day.

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